My last day off before i have to work 9 days straight before my next two days off. at least those days off will be on the weekend...something i havent had for a long while now. hopefully daniel and i can plan something cool to do those days...being that its very rare that i have them off. sucky part is that i have a store meeting to be on my second day off at 5am. who the hell planned that shit? fuck it, who cares. go with the flow christine, it makes life a lot easier at work.
today is totally a lazy day. i'm out of a car until 3pm, so i woke up early to run around the block 4 times. then came back home, did some crunches, reverse crunches, squats and lunges. sometimes you gotta improvise when you cant get to the gym. its time to buckle down on my workouts being that the wedding is 11 months away. i hope to lose 20 pounds before then, if not 20 then dammit i better lose some inches off my waist and thighs. ha...every woman's trouble spots. i miss being in my teens and athletic, where i can eat just about anything and everything and not have to worry about fitting into my size 2 or 3 jeans. boy are those days long gone. now its the uphill battle to fit into the jeans i wear today, which i choose not to disclose the size on them. its quite scary actually.
anyway, the job hunting will begin soon. i need to expand my horizons and obtain experience elsewhere. somewhere along my field. i'm thinking about possibly going back to earn my masters in business admin or even social work. i havent really decided on that. i do know that i cant stay in retail. i need me a 9-5 monday through friday. fuck the weekend shifts...i've had it with them. i need consistency. but the problem with obtaining consistency is the fact that i will more than likely have to take a pay cut, and i'm not sure i want to do all that. there's a wedding that needs to be paid for and a house we want to try and buy. i dont make nearly enough as it is....how can afford a dollar or two pay cut an hour. just not possible right now. what will most likely end up happening is dropping down to part time where i am at, then working somewhere that is along my field of interest to gain experience until i can move into a full time job that pays well enough. the headaches of being out of college and indecisive. rather, its my fault for majoring in something that cant find a job in. i should have done business admin instead of law and society. sucks, cause the law intrigues me and business admin are where all the jobs are at right now. my luck! cant dwell now, need to adapt to society and make a place in it for myself.
as you can tell, lazy days offers me a lot of time to think about shit. i'll sit back and ponder what to do about my life, where i want to be in the future, how i plan on getting there and which routes to take.
for right now, i've seemed to put a lot of time into planning this wedding for next year. unfortunately, planning a wedding isnt all fun, nor does everything happen your way. it appears our guest list has grown by 50 people. in all reality, i am hoping that a quarter of the people we invite will end up rsvp'ing with a regret. planning is a job all in itself...i think a lot of my stress and headache will come down to having things done the way i want them done. that takes doing all the leg work, all the calling, all the driving around and figuring things out, all the canvasing, shopping about and just getting things done one by one. in the midst of all that, try and cut down some of the costs. trying to find people who know people and getting a referral discount or something. weddings arent cheap these days. $30k ten years ago would have bought you the most elegant wedding of someones dreams. nowadays, that buys you just the basics...barely the basics. that includes, the ceremony site, the reception venue and food. but also doesnt help when you have a guest list of 450 either. hence the saying, you cant have everything your way. oh well. reality always bites us in the ass.
i really need to start using that wedding planner we got from robbins bros. i think that will help me a lot. keep things organized and hopefully it will give me a sense of direction on what to do next. i envy people that are good at planning huge events like this.
its almost noon...and here i ponder what to do next. i've taken the pups a bath, worked on the guest list some, need to take dad to pick up his car at the shop when he gets back home, then he'll take me to get my car out of the shop around 3pm then i'll head home shortly after that to work on more wedding stuff...this time the budget. nah, i think i'll start that now after i post this.
here's to my last day off....
