march has arrived at full speed...the days themselves are quickly approaching and ending even quicker than they came. the march madness i refer to in this here blog has no relevance to sports in any way, shape or form. march madness refers solely to the madness i am going through for this wedding and in this particular month of march. i am less than three months away from getting married. three months...
this past saturday i had the opportunity to try my dress on in front of my mom. it was her first time to see my gown and i swear she had a tear in her eye. she talked to the alterations people and wanted to make sure that the gown was going to be altered perfectly for me. she even chose the perfect veil that would match the dress and my body form. i'm glad she came cause i dont have any lick of fashion when it comes to dresses or veils...or girl fashion for that matter. i am strictly a jeans and tshirt type of gal...always have been and probably always will be.
trying on that dress made the wedding feel even more real. up to this point, the wedding was something i have been planning for the past year now and hasnt had a lot umph to my life or even emotions. it was just a thing i needed to plan and do. now as this month marches on, and april quickly approaches things are starting to come into perspective. the feelings and emotions are surfacing and the reality of it becoming more evident. this is a life altering experience. i've done it once and failed at it, and here i am taking another jab at it in hopes i stay successful at it. but having failed once, my emotions are somewhat tarnished. i want this marriage to be everything my previous marriage wasnt. i want the day to be perfect, the events to run smoothly and the guests to share in our happiness and joy.
hence the reason why i am working so hard at making it perfect. though i know, as well as everyone else, that the day will probably be far from perfect...or rather the perfect in which i envision within my head. and i'm ok with that. i'm content knowing that i am really taking my vows in front of God, but not only God, but in front of my family and friends. we will have hundreds of witnesses there to see me profess my love for daniel and take vows i promise not to break. but the best part of the day will be the actual vows we say to one another. everything leading to that point will have been worth it, even if i stumble and fall walking towards the altar. its what danny is looking forward to the most, its what means the most in this wedding, and i have taken the same viewpoint as he. because in reality it is that phrase that we say to one another that really binds us in marriage. its what makes us part of being a sacrament, a sacrament of marriage honored by the institution of church. it cant get better than that, i suppose.
well, tis all for now...too much rambling going through my head...soon i'll be reminiscing again about my past and i really dont want to. i've left that behind me and have already taken many steps forward with no intentions of double stepping back. we'll leave that perhaps for another day....or not.
good nite you nosy people....
