16 days and counting down.....
until the big day....our wedding! it's fast approaching and the hours in the day just dont seem long enough. i have a mental list of everything i still need to do, and for some unfathomable reason, nothing on that list has been crossed off. change...life changes...and it continues to change and my poor little mind and body is having a hard time adjusting to such change right now. the 17th will be one of thee happiest days of my life...but everything leading up to it is quite overwhelming at this point. daniel has been and continues to provide all support he can give me in any way possible and i couldnt ask more from him. he has done a great job cheering me on. i just wish it'd be over already.
its quite funny....i read this in an article a few days ago...but the article states that a wedding is not for the bride or groom, its for the guests invited. i never really wanted to look at it that way, but on my drive home today after my last fitting of my gown, it hit me like a ton of bricks. and the sad part is....that statement is so totally true. its kinda depressing actually. the money danny is spending on this wedding is a nice chunk of change we can be placing on a down payment for a house or condo. it truly is and its quite disturbing. i know when danny reads this, he'll chuckle at himself ... and even mumble an i told you so ... or even say we'll she wanted a big wedding and here she is having one... and he's right.
i did want a big wedding. i wanted a huge fabulous wedding with everyone invited...and i know this is the biggest waste of money we'll ever do...but i know in the end it will all have been worth it. i know deep down everything will not go my way, and i'm having a hard time accepting that and probably wont openly admit that, but i'm okay with it. i know regardless of the unforeseen situation, the day will be absolutely beautiful. i'm nervous to meet the rest of the young/sams clan, but thats given. i just hope i'll be a nice addition to the young/sams clan.
the final touches are well underway... the wedding is two weekends from now....16 days. i know that the time will fly by so quickly. so fast i wont even know what hit me....but i have to take it in stride...not for my sake, but dan's sake too. he will probably see me at one of my worse stages in the coming 16 days, and i'm bound to lose some kinds of weight and turn quite a few black hairs to silver ones. but its all comes with the territory. by the end of the month, i will be a married woman. wow....
just breathe....remember to take one breath at a time.....breathe in and breathe out..everything is going to be fine.....
