so here i sit, about 40 min to go before i am back out on the road needing to be somewhere. tonite its daniels bball night with the guys. being a great fiancee that i try to be, i try to go to every game for moral support. they're good players, but can be random too.
last night put us over the hump for our precana classes. just two more to go. i cant wait till this thing is finished. i really cant. it has gotten really repetitive and meaningless to me. i am at the point where i am just going with the motions. its so ridiculous that its not funny anymore. and the homework they give...are you serious...its almost a joke...ok it is a joke. these classes are so geared towards kids that have just gotten out of high school, those who dont have a lot of life experience under their belts.
work...man...its almost killing me. i feel like i am starting to live in my cube. i am there 6 days a week. i work a lil over 50 hours a week and probably will continue at this pace until april...as suggested in our last meeting. we were forewarned in the last meeting that all probationers and newbies have to work overtime if they plan on working there next year. so basically i am an overtime bitch for the next god knows how long. but whatever, i need this job. it has damn good benefits and in a weird way they take care of their employees. but its a job that is definitely worth keeping. as much as i am bitching about it now, its cake. it really is and to get paid to do what i do is amazing almost. though it gets boring after 2 hours, good thing i can listen to tunes while i work...its what keeps me paced
this week by far will be one of the busiest weeks ever for me. i have something planned to do after work everyday of this week...that includes the weekends. if i keep going at this pace, with planning the wedding and living life..my ass will be burned out before the wedding. sad part is that i dont even get a break....no honeymoon this year. who knows when we'll be able to take it or if we'll take it at all...it may be something that falls in the cracks as time passes. this wedding has gotten to be not what i expected. i thought i'd be thrilled about it all, but i'm so the opposite. i am waiting for sunday the 18th more than i am the 17th, just so i can breathe a little easier with all the stress off my shoulders. its a whatever for me now....i presume it'll be that way till the day i get married... but then again i cant speak in definitive tones, cause things change...its just the way life is now a days.
on a happier note...the invitations, the ring and coin pillows, the flower girl baskets and our giveaways are ordered. thank heavens!!! now all i have to worry about is the programs, the place cards, the numbers for the tables, and gifts for my girls. oh and i still have to buy a veil, not to mention the rope and other veil. so many little things that i know that i am forgetting. so many...i'm gonna lose my mind here shortly.
well, its almost that time to hit the road and see my honey play some ball.
