christmas has come again. this year the family is doing something different. we've managed to go to church on our own times this year. danny and i, attended midnight mass at Good Shepherd in Mira Mesa. Its been a long while since the last time that i've been to mass. every year prior to this, i was always one of the members of church sitting in a pew listening to the priest say wow, we have a full house tonite....if only every sunday was like this, but unfortunately the only time we have huge crowds like these are during christmas and easter. as much as i dont want to admit it, i was one of those people this year. i cant promise that next year it'll be different cause i dont like to make promises that i cannot keep. this year was a busy year for me and i never seemed to want to make time for church. not a good thing at all. i grew up going to church, and here i am on my own and have been out of my parents house now for the past 7 and a half years...and i cant seem to get myself together and attend church. its a small sacrifice. an hour once a week, and i failed to do it this year. tis tis on me.
the game plan for today is to head over to moms house and bbq some of my famous ribs. i take pride in them, cause they are scrumptious. my brother ralph is cooking a 12 pound prime rib and dad is cooking some kind of potato dish. last i head it was hash browns, but that cant be right. the pie just finished cooking in my oven and is ready to go over to moms. i'm preparing my ribs for bbqing here before i bring em over. paul will probably bring something over also, not sure what. jim, well, he's lazy and probably wont contribute jack shit but complaints. there's always a scrooge in every family. some where in the mix, we'll exchange gifts so the kids will have some kind of christmas this year. we arent the traditional family when it comes to the holidays. we never have been. my parents dont even have a tree up...its been maybe 10 years now that they dont put up a tree, but at least they have lights up outside.
sometimes i wish we were more traditional with celebrating christmas. i guess i'll have to live that out when i have kids. the whole christmas carols around the fireplace drinking hot cocoa and doctored egg nog. i definitely want to make a big deal about decorating the tree and putting up lights. its hard to now cause its just me and danny. maybe when we get a bigger place we can have a christmas eve party of even just a christmas party so we can have friends over and just enjoy the holidays. i've always wanted to host a christmas party of some sort cause they're always fun. one year it'll happen....
stay tuned for tonites post....maybe it'll happen tomorrow...
Tuesday, December 25, 2007
Saturday, December 22, 2007
27
gaining another year under my belt, i have turned 27 years old. as i think back about reminisce about the past 26 years of my life, i can honestly say that i have been through hell and back again in the past 6 years of my life. but nows not the time to dwell on those things because i have learned and moved on. i live a beautiful life with many opportunities. often times i take for granted what i have. i can honestly say that i do....cause i know there are many people out there that would like to walk in my shoes.
in the past 2 years alone...i have really made a difference in my life. i graduated from college. having been rejected by so many employers because of lack of job experience, i decided to start my work experience at home depot. they were actually the only company that wanted to hire me at the time and i took advantage of it. i stayed there for 1 year and 3 and a half months. it definitely is not the best job out there. BUT, i did gain some valuable work experience, and gosh darn it, i think customer service is a great experience to have...especially in our society. last month i was presented with an opportunity that seemed, at the time, too good to be true. but what the hell, i thought, i may as well see where it takes me...i didnt have anything to lose. i really didnt want to start a new job until after the wedding just so that i have my vacation time in place for the honeymoon.
low and behold, 1 week after submitting my resume i was called back. i couldnt even begin to tell you how excited i was when the person on the other line said they were from kaiser. my heart nearly skipped a beat. it took nearly 3-4 weeks before i was actually hired. a process, from what i was told, that would nearly take 2-3 months. i really got lucky with this one. i have to admit, the work is boring but i got to tell you, i love my job...right now at least. i dont know of a job that is more laid back than this. this company really takes care of its employees and has awesome benefits. this is probably one of the best things that has happened to me this year.
anyway, the holiday season is definitely here. i almost almost done with my christmas shopping. i always tend to be one of those last minute shoppers. but i am happy to admit that i did not have to go to the mall this year for christmas gifts. i did a lot of christmas shopping online and i have resorted to just giving gift cards away, and those are always convenient to buy now at the local grocery stores. conveniences, gotta love it.
having chosen to quit home depot, i finally went back into the store today to buy something. it was nice to see everyone i worked with. to know that many of those people were happy to see me - made me feel good. i have definitely made some friends there. note to buddy...when am i gonna get a copy of those photos that we took when we dressed up???? send em my way buddy! oh and by the way, i miss you. but hey word to the wise, you'll be outta there soon and onto bigger and better things. take it this way...you invested time into home depot and that time will pay off sooner or later. customer service is a good thing to have under your belt. trust...it'll pay off.
in the past 2 years alone...i have really made a difference in my life. i graduated from college. having been rejected by so many employers because of lack of job experience, i decided to start my work experience at home depot. they were actually the only company that wanted to hire me at the time and i took advantage of it. i stayed there for 1 year and 3 and a half months. it definitely is not the best job out there. BUT, i did gain some valuable work experience, and gosh darn it, i think customer service is a great experience to have...especially in our society. last month i was presented with an opportunity that seemed, at the time, too good to be true. but what the hell, i thought, i may as well see where it takes me...i didnt have anything to lose. i really didnt want to start a new job until after the wedding just so that i have my vacation time in place for the honeymoon.
low and behold, 1 week after submitting my resume i was called back. i couldnt even begin to tell you how excited i was when the person on the other line said they were from kaiser. my heart nearly skipped a beat. it took nearly 3-4 weeks before i was actually hired. a process, from what i was told, that would nearly take 2-3 months. i really got lucky with this one. i have to admit, the work is boring but i got to tell you, i love my job...right now at least. i dont know of a job that is more laid back than this. this company really takes care of its employees and has awesome benefits. this is probably one of the best things that has happened to me this year.
anyway, the holiday season is definitely here. i almost almost done with my christmas shopping. i always tend to be one of those last minute shoppers. but i am happy to admit that i did not have to go to the mall this year for christmas gifts. i did a lot of christmas shopping online and i have resorted to just giving gift cards away, and those are always convenient to buy now at the local grocery stores. conveniences, gotta love it.
having chosen to quit home depot, i finally went back into the store today to buy something. it was nice to see everyone i worked with. to know that many of those people were happy to see me - made me feel good. i have definitely made some friends there. note to buddy...when am i gonna get a copy of those photos that we took when we dressed up???? send em my way buddy! oh and by the way, i miss you. but hey word to the wise, you'll be outta there soon and onto bigger and better things. take it this way...you invested time into home depot and that time will pay off sooner or later. customer service is a good thing to have under your belt. trust...it'll pay off.
Monday, December 17, 2007
quota
every day at work i have a quota to meet....which typically amounts to this...nearly 10-15 calls per day and 85-90 cases worked. thats a lot. i for the first two days was able to meet my quota. however, today, i wasnt able to meet that quota. i only got 56 cases done, in an 8 hour period. the worse part is that i didnt even have to answer phones today or for the next few weeks for that matter. how pathetic. a lot, i feel, has to do with how i was trained today. my trainer, did not understand that i am a hands-on learner. you can preach to me and educate me verbally till i am blue in the face, but i can guarantee you that i wont learn jack shit from it. i've always been that way since day one. my preschool teach mrs howard will tell you that. i've tried to change my learning style, but nothing has changed.
at any rate, the people in my bay are slowly opening up to me...so to speak. granted i sit at the end of the bay, thank god, cause i hate when people watch me work. but anyway, a few of them have talked to me on a regular basis now. the others...eh...not so sure about. the gay guy hasnt said a word to me since day one, the lady with the manly voice hasnt even acknowledged that i am alive. the runner chick, she's easing up. the fat lady, she's alright, she the only one thats jolly and talks to me. the filipina lady, not sure what to think of her, she's a loaner for sure, and she's retiring at the end of the month, so i dont give a shit about her, and she probably doesnt give a shit about me.
i have made any new friends at my new work, and i kinda like that. i am treating it strictly as work. i feel that this place is one in which, you are on your own. and such i treat as so. but i definitely dont want to get into the cubicle drama as most people are sucked into it. i dont care much about other people garbage when it come down to the nitty gritty. its bad enough that we have mandatory potlucks to tend to. people at my work love food. they see food and they have no problem eating it. come on now, they have potlucks every 2 weeks it seems like. kinda funny i think. it gives everyone a reason to have a 2 hour paid lunch. cant beat that. means i have time to run miscellaneous errands in and around my work, while people eat up and play scrabble or mad gabs.
i must say this...i definitely dont miss the customers at home depot. i miss my peeps tho. buddy i miss you too, you're like the little bro i never had. lindsay, i miss my lunch buddy. jasmin, i miss the talks about life with you. vicki...i miss the shit talking and horse play. anna, i've missed you since you left me and went to the vault...youre like a big sis to me...you, jasmin and lindsay. i definitely dont miss victor tho...ta hell with ya dude. mikey in appliances, i miss being your go to lady...you always knew how to cheer me up when the going got tough. buddy, jules and jasmin...when we gonna grub up on some sushi...yo? don in garden, eh man, i took your advice, i havent looked back since i left. sad part is, i have to go there tomorrow to buy some shit for the closet and some gift cards for my bros. oh well, at least i'm a customer now, and not donovan's bitch! i definitely miss you peeps!
at any rate, the people in my bay are slowly opening up to me...so to speak. granted i sit at the end of the bay, thank god, cause i hate when people watch me work. but anyway, a few of them have talked to me on a regular basis now. the others...eh...not so sure about. the gay guy hasnt said a word to me since day one, the lady with the manly voice hasnt even acknowledged that i am alive. the runner chick, she's easing up. the fat lady, she's alright, she the only one thats jolly and talks to me. the filipina lady, not sure what to think of her, she's a loaner for sure, and she's retiring at the end of the month, so i dont give a shit about her, and she probably doesnt give a shit about me.
i have made any new friends at my new work, and i kinda like that. i am treating it strictly as work. i feel that this place is one in which, you are on your own. and such i treat as so. but i definitely dont want to get into the cubicle drama as most people are sucked into it. i dont care much about other people garbage when it come down to the nitty gritty. its bad enough that we have mandatory potlucks to tend to. people at my work love food. they see food and they have no problem eating it. come on now, they have potlucks every 2 weeks it seems like. kinda funny i think. it gives everyone a reason to have a 2 hour paid lunch. cant beat that. means i have time to run miscellaneous errands in and around my work, while people eat up and play scrabble or mad gabs.
i must say this...i definitely dont miss the customers at home depot. i miss my peeps tho. buddy i miss you too, you're like the little bro i never had. lindsay, i miss my lunch buddy. jasmin, i miss the talks about life with you. vicki...i miss the shit talking and horse play. anna, i've missed you since you left me and went to the vault...youre like a big sis to me...you, jasmin and lindsay. i definitely dont miss victor tho...ta hell with ya dude. mikey in appliances, i miss being your go to lady...you always knew how to cheer me up when the going got tough. buddy, jules and jasmin...when we gonna grub up on some sushi...yo? don in garden, eh man, i took your advice, i havent looked back since i left. sad part is, i have to go there tomorrow to buy some shit for the closet and some gift cards for my bros. oh well, at least i'm a customer now, and not donovan's bitch! i definitely miss you peeps!
Thursday, December 13, 2007
the beginning
today was my very first meeting at work. the girls in the bay next to me warned me about how boring it would be...and it was. i seriously felt like i was in grade school. right when i walked in my manager asked me to sit way in the front right next to her. no big deal...i just dont like being singled out like that. then of course, as expected, she introduced me to everyone in the room. most people i knew or met because of shadowing. when asked where i came from, the manager mentioned home depot...so now my nickname there is ms home depot...or just home depot. whatever. who cares. cant let it get to me. but then there was the ooohhh and not so ahhh in the air becuase my co-workers love the transfers from the call center because they already know some of the system...whereas, i dont know jack shit about the system and i cant get into the next training until january 3rd...so for the next 2 weeks i am the mercy of my coworkers. my co workers dont seem to have a lot of faith in me just cause i got hired off the street. but i aint gonna let it bother me, i just got to show them that i can handle my own ground.
after the meeting, i was finally given my computer log in...and thank god it worked cause i was actually working today. i did member changes for the remainder of the day and boy oh boy i loved it. i have my own computer, my own place to sit, my own work....ahh,....is finally coming together. i had a lot of questions, but i only pended 17 cases and finished 97....i met the daily quota...and for a newbee i think thats fucking fantastic. it sure impressed my trainer and manager.
i also got my own emial address....its almost official. i just cant wait until they get me into their chronos system via the phone...and it would help if i had a working phone. i hope things really come together soon. all i need to do is receive my benefits package via the email and get my direct deposit going. i'd hate to have to go to the bank and deposit my checks every saturday.
so far the week has gone by pretty calmly. according to the manager, i will be fitted next week for my ergonomic comfort at my desk...i hope to god they give me a regular key board cause that ergonomic keyboard is cramping my style and slowing me down. so that'll be something to look forward to. i guess. tomorrow we have a mandatory pot luck, we'll have a 2 hour lunch to attend and shoot the shit with co-workers. hopefully i'll get to mingle with everyone....and try and become part of the family there. for whatever reason, i still feel like the outsider and i hate that feeling. kinda makes me sad. time will tell...only time.
so far the beginning has been tolerable....and its just the beginning....
after the meeting, i was finally given my computer log in...and thank god it worked cause i was actually working today. i did member changes for the remainder of the day and boy oh boy i loved it. i have my own computer, my own place to sit, my own work....ahh,....is finally coming together. i had a lot of questions, but i only pended 17 cases and finished 97....i met the daily quota...and for a newbee i think thats fucking fantastic. it sure impressed my trainer and manager.
i also got my own emial address....its almost official. i just cant wait until they get me into their chronos system via the phone...and it would help if i had a working phone. i hope things really come together soon. all i need to do is receive my benefits package via the email and get my direct deposit going. i'd hate to have to go to the bank and deposit my checks every saturday.
so far the week has gone by pretty calmly. according to the manager, i will be fitted next week for my ergonomic comfort at my desk...i hope to god they give me a regular key board cause that ergonomic keyboard is cramping my style and slowing me down. so that'll be something to look forward to. i guess. tomorrow we have a mandatory pot luck, we'll have a 2 hour lunch to attend and shoot the shit with co-workers. hopefully i'll get to mingle with everyone....and try and become part of the family there. for whatever reason, i still feel like the outsider and i hate that feeling. kinda makes me sad. time will tell...only time.
so far the beginning has been tolerable....and its just the beginning....
Monday, December 10, 2007
a new start
the color orange....is now part of my past. i have served my time and learned many things at the hell depot. finally on saturday december 8, 2007 i was able to put it all behind me. i threw in the towel and called it quits 2 weeks prior to saturday and patiently waited for saturday to arrive. and boy oh boy when it did, my grin was ear to ear. i was probably the happiest person in that store that day. i counted my time, hour by hour then minute by minute. i said my good bye's...hugged those that i care about and shook hands with those i couldnt wait to leave.
having been at home depot for over a year i was able to meet new people and create bonds with those that i care for. i have met quite a crowd there, and only a handful i have promised myself to keep in touch with...just a handful. i have an almost new best friend and definitely a confidant. these people have really got me through the worse at home depot and have definitely laughed with me and cheered me on when i succeeded in something. i walked away from home depot with an air of confidence.
jenn had definitely made it a memorable last day by shrink wrapping my truck...never thought they'd do it to me, but they definitely found my truck and wrapped it. then in my last hour, tony and jenn tapped me to a chair and shrink wrapped me and rolled me all over the front end....a departing gesture meaning they will me miss....i think. i will definitely miss some people there, but i no doubt am very happy that i am no longer in customer service dealing with customers one-on-one. no more retail for me. btw, you can check out those shrink wrap pictures on my flickr account. they are all posted there. having the home depot now behind me....
i started monday with a brand new start at kaiser. my first day....was....hectic. there was a lot of information that was presented to me. i hope to have retained a lot of it. i hope! i trained with a pretty cool lady...jeannie...she's a lot older, but she was a cool cat. unfortunately i wont be with her tomorrow....i'll have to rotate onto someone new. the system they work with is pretty complex, but with the right training i plan to master it.
kaiser is definitely something different that home depot. i am not able to have my cell phone on or i'll be written up. i have little access to the outside world..right now at least. i hope to have my own extension by sometime next week. i do, however, have my own cubicle. i must say, i have a pretty damn cool cubicle. i need to decorate in and around it. i definitely need to put up a photo of me and daniel so all them damn dudes hitting on me today know I GOT A MAN! i'm spoken for fools! and if you aint leave me alone you'll be answering to my honey.
anyway, kaiser is a real cool place. the people are extremely friendly and helpful. they have all kinds of incentives to work hard. they have competitions and reward you with amex gift cards, they seem to always have pot lucks, managers always provide cookies and brownies, and management walks around and actually shows you they give a shit about you. which i think is really nice. i feel like i'm part of the company and not just the bitch doing the grunt work to get things done. i look forward to working at kaiser and taking full advantage of any benefits they have to offer me. .... wish me luck in my endeavors.
having been at home depot for over a year i was able to meet new people and create bonds with those that i care for. i have met quite a crowd there, and only a handful i have promised myself to keep in touch with...just a handful. i have an almost new best friend and definitely a confidant. these people have really got me through the worse at home depot and have definitely laughed with me and cheered me on when i succeeded in something. i walked away from home depot with an air of confidence.
jenn had definitely made it a memorable last day by shrink wrapping my truck...never thought they'd do it to me, but they definitely found my truck and wrapped it. then in my last hour, tony and jenn tapped me to a chair and shrink wrapped me and rolled me all over the front end....a departing gesture meaning they will me miss....i think. i will definitely miss some people there, but i no doubt am very happy that i am no longer in customer service dealing with customers one-on-one. no more retail for me. btw, you can check out those shrink wrap pictures on my flickr account. they are all posted there. having the home depot now behind me....
i started monday with a brand new start at kaiser. my first day....was....hectic. there was a lot of information that was presented to me. i hope to have retained a lot of it. i hope! i trained with a pretty cool lady...jeannie...she's a lot older, but she was a cool cat. unfortunately i wont be with her tomorrow....i'll have to rotate onto someone new. the system they work with is pretty complex, but with the right training i plan to master it.
kaiser is definitely something different that home depot. i am not able to have my cell phone on or i'll be written up. i have little access to the outside world..right now at least. i hope to have my own extension by sometime next week. i do, however, have my own cubicle. i must say, i have a pretty damn cool cubicle. i need to decorate in and around it. i definitely need to put up a photo of me and daniel so all them damn dudes hitting on me today know I GOT A MAN! i'm spoken for fools! and if you aint leave me alone you'll be answering to my honey.
anyway, kaiser is a real cool place. the people are extremely friendly and helpful. they have all kinds of incentives to work hard. they have competitions and reward you with amex gift cards, they seem to always have pot lucks, managers always provide cookies and brownies, and management walks around and actually shows you they give a shit about you. which i think is really nice. i feel like i'm part of the company and not just the bitch doing the grunt work to get things done. i look forward to working at kaiser and taking full advantage of any benefits they have to offer me. .... wish me luck in my endeavors.
Sunday, December 2, 2007
holidays
can you believe that it is already december? the last month of 2007. the holiday season that manages to bring out the worse in most people and the best in the rest. the holiday season is definitely in full swing. everywhere you look there's a little bit of the christmas spirit everywhere. lights are slowly going up on people's houses, trees are being transported home, christmas music is being played in almost everywhere retail store and people are even starting to say happy holidays. i tell you, the holiday season seems to kick off earlier and earlier each year. soon we'll be in the christmas spirit by halloween, then the following year it will be labor day then the following year it'll be by the 4th of july. okay okay....thats an exaggeration...but the point is, people are getting into it earlier and earlier each year....i guess its not so much people, but retail stores.
so the verdict of the colorado trip finally came back this past week. danny finally shared 'the' email with me from the parental units. i tell you, i was nervous reading that thing. i wasnt sure if i even wanted to open the email. but i did. i got their approval. they stated that they liked me a lot and were very impressed with me. thats a good sign. i was finally able to sleep well that night...the anticipation of what they thought of me was really building up after the trip and i am glad that i sailed away in flying colors. the thought of getting along with my future in laws is almost the greatest feeling. it just means that there wont be hostility between us in the future. and thats good. it'll make looking forward to the holidays or the yearly trip out to colorado more exciting for me and danny. he was right, i should have never worried about it. i took his advice from the get go...he said to be myself...and darn it i was...and it paid off.
so this christmas will be me and danny's first christmas together. last year he went home for the holidays and i was not able to go with him. but from here on out, we are to spend all our holidays together. so this particular christmas is a special one for me...just because he'll be home for it. i'll get to wake up to him on christmas day and run over to the tree with excitement, ready to open my presents and watch him open his. it'll be great. i'm so excited. hopefully next week we'll be picking out our christmas tree and decorating around the house...more so this year than last...just cause he's gonna be home for it. i'm even gonna try and make some of them famous donna sugar cookies. i did most my christmas shopping for him already...just a couple more things to get and some stocking stuffers and i am pau...oh ya baby...started early this year!
so the verdict of the colorado trip finally came back this past week. danny finally shared 'the' email with me from the parental units. i tell you, i was nervous reading that thing. i wasnt sure if i even wanted to open the email. but i did. i got their approval. they stated that they liked me a lot and were very impressed with me. thats a good sign. i was finally able to sleep well that night...the anticipation of what they thought of me was really building up after the trip and i am glad that i sailed away in flying colors. the thought of getting along with my future in laws is almost the greatest feeling. it just means that there wont be hostility between us in the future. and thats good. it'll make looking forward to the holidays or the yearly trip out to colorado more exciting for me and danny. he was right, i should have never worried about it. i took his advice from the get go...he said to be myself...and darn it i was...and it paid off.
so this christmas will be me and danny's first christmas together. last year he went home for the holidays and i was not able to go with him. but from here on out, we are to spend all our holidays together. so this particular christmas is a special one for me...just because he'll be home for it. i'll get to wake up to him on christmas day and run over to the tree with excitement, ready to open my presents and watch him open his. it'll be great. i'm so excited. hopefully next week we'll be picking out our christmas tree and decorating around the house...more so this year than last...just cause he's gonna be home for it. i'm even gonna try and make some of them famous donna sugar cookies. i did most my christmas shopping for him already...just a couple more things to get and some stocking stuffers and i am pau...oh ya baby...started early this year!
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
under the weather
its about that time of the year that many people start feeling a lil under the weather. believe it or not, my danny, is under the weather. the man hardly ever gets sick. but for some reason, this bug has got a hold of him for sure. he's at home right now, i'm hoping, sleeping like a baby. he was instructed to take some nyquil, but he hates taking medicine. hopefully tonite he'll be able to sweat it out...and sleep soundly not having to worry that he might be keeping me up.
this month has been quite a busy one. the colorado trip really made it busy, but also having a new job opportunity arise made it even more busy. i, after 1 year and 3 months, finally walked into the hr office and handed jessie my two weeks notice. i cant even begin to express how good that felt. having worked for a company for so long - a company that i have learned to hate, has really made me ill-spirited towards them. having been able to place that two week notice in was like a slap back in their face. i know they'll be losing a real valuable employee to their workforce, not that they gave a shit, but it's there loss and not mines. i have gained a lot of experience from this company. i cant say it any better than robert x..." you were just buying time here...not wasting it...you were able to pick up some valuable skills that will get you where you eventually want to be." i was almost touched when he said that to me. this man has been working for the company for a long while now, and if ever you get to sit down with him, he really tells you how it is. he does not beat around that bush or sugar coat anything...he's very direct and to the point...the kind of man that home depot hates...but cannot afford to lose. pretty funny i think.
if all goes well, i will be starting me new job on the 10th. i cannot tell you how freaking excited i am. this is the type of job that i have seen myself doing from the get go. i'll have my own little cube, my own desk, phone, keys...security badge...the works. its so exciting. along with it, more responsibility...and i just cant wait to prove to this company what i am made of. i hope to go far with this company and possibly make it a career...move up the steps and gain seniority as i go. its a well paying job, well to my standards, the benefits are the damn greatest there is...and its monday through friday 8-5...cannot beat that! well you can if you only work a few days out of the week and have cash coming out of every crevice of your body...but who has that going on, huh bill gates?
many co-workers have heard of my departure and many of them are very happy to see me go...in a good way. i was warned by the majority that this company is not one to stay with as they do not care for the employees...which is so true i might add. they are happy to see that i finally am able to get out and away from the hell whole of which we work for day after day, hour after hour. a select few are angry of my departure because it leaves them short staffed...boo fucking hoo....get over it. i found something way better than what this company has ever had to offer me...and damnit i'd be a fool to not take this opportunity and GROW from it.
so here i am...living life one beat at a time...and at just the right time an opportunity presented itself...and here i am taking it....my life is slowly falling in sync with the rhythm and harmony life's music...
this month has been quite a busy one. the colorado trip really made it busy, but also having a new job opportunity arise made it even more busy. i, after 1 year and 3 months, finally walked into the hr office and handed jessie my two weeks notice. i cant even begin to express how good that felt. having worked for a company for so long - a company that i have learned to hate, has really made me ill-spirited towards them. having been able to place that two week notice in was like a slap back in their face. i know they'll be losing a real valuable employee to their workforce, not that they gave a shit, but it's there loss and not mines. i have gained a lot of experience from this company. i cant say it any better than robert x..." you were just buying time here...not wasting it...you were able to pick up some valuable skills that will get you where you eventually want to be." i was almost touched when he said that to me. this man has been working for the company for a long while now, and if ever you get to sit down with him, he really tells you how it is. he does not beat around that bush or sugar coat anything...he's very direct and to the point...the kind of man that home depot hates...but cannot afford to lose. pretty funny i think.
if all goes well, i will be starting me new job on the 10th. i cannot tell you how freaking excited i am. this is the type of job that i have seen myself doing from the get go. i'll have my own little cube, my own desk, phone, keys...security badge...the works. its so exciting. along with it, more responsibility...and i just cant wait to prove to this company what i am made of. i hope to go far with this company and possibly make it a career...move up the steps and gain seniority as i go. its a well paying job, well to my standards, the benefits are the damn greatest there is...and its monday through friday 8-5...cannot beat that! well you can if you only work a few days out of the week and have cash coming out of every crevice of your body...but who has that going on, huh bill gates?
many co-workers have heard of my departure and many of them are very happy to see me go...in a good way. i was warned by the majority that this company is not one to stay with as they do not care for the employees...which is so true i might add. they are happy to see that i finally am able to get out and away from the hell whole of which we work for day after day, hour after hour. a select few are angry of my departure because it leaves them short staffed...boo fucking hoo....get over it. i found something way better than what this company has ever had to offer me...and damnit i'd be a fool to not take this opportunity and GROW from it.
so here i am...living life one beat at a time...and at just the right time an opportunity presented itself...and here i am taking it....my life is slowly falling in sync with the rhythm and harmony life's music...
Monday, November 26, 2007
Lovely
making our rounds of saying good-bye, donna and i embraced, but before the embrace she said...come here lovely lady...or something to that effect. the main thing of that phrase is lovely lady. having been nervous as shit going there, i was eased by the end of the trip with just those words. i wasnt able to get a good feel on whether roger or donna liked me or not throughout the week long stay at their home. they are not easy people to read.....now i know where daniel gets it from. i couldnt read him for nothing even if my life depended on it.
Sunday....the week had a long long start to it....a thousand mile drive which ended up being about 16 hours. we drove through california, nevada, arizona, utah and colorado to get to a one stop light town named buena vista. its quite a small town, but not as small as most towns we saw enroute. anyhow, we left here sunday morning at 4:40....and arrived there about 9 in the evening. i slept here and there but was awake for the most part towards the end of the trip where i wished i would have slept. the switch backs up the mountain were making me and luthor feel yucky. daniel drove the entire way there...he wouldnt let me drive...something told me he wanted to prove is manly driving skills to me that day. ha...well, you proved em well babe. i was very impressed. we stopped about 5 times to gas up our little kia sportage. that car went through hell and back again. daniel picked it up nice and shinny and returned it gritty and grimmy. we arrived at the house, to discover no one was home. wasnt bad...for me at least. i felt a lil at ease...was kinda like...schwoo. shortly after unloading the car, his parents arrived. boy i tell ya, my heart started beating like there were no tomorrow. i didnt look very presentable to his parents...being that i was stuck on my ass for the better part of the day with no where to go but there. i was worried about first impressions with them...those are the ones that last the longest. anyway, daniel and his parents hugged and said hi...and then it was my turn...they hugged and said hi. shocked i was....didnt think i'd get a hug so quick from them. they were very at ease about everything. it was almost like we already met before somewhere. for the rest of the night, i was definitely on my toes. didnt really speak unless spoken to...that type of deal. we ate some home cooked meatloaf that was absolutely delish. i normally dont like meat loaf, but the woman made it so well. either that or i was just hungry. i was offered a shower...oh hell yes, i was taking one. definitely wasnt going to turn that down. having been warned that the hot water doesnt last long i was very nervous to take a shower. daniel said hot water only lasts 10 minutes. so here i was...starting to prepare for the long awaited shower...and i'm thinking ...shit...i think i only have enough time to wash my hair and soap half my body. i looked at my razor and said...fuck it....not tonite. so i got in and got out. huhm...funny thing, my shower was more than 10 min...i could have shaved my legs if i wanted it...damn it.
Monday....woke up and got ready to go sightseeing. didnt take long to see the town...a couple of hours if that. beautiful town it was...small but beautiful. took some photos here and there. nothing extravagant. we headed back a little after 12 then decided we would go and eat at sonics...had to do it. i always see the commercials and needed to conquer it. let me tell you, the food was so so. didnt like the burger, liked the tots and loved the shake. it only took us an hour to get to it and then an hour back. it was far....not worth the drive. i would have driven farther for filet mignon and lobster...but sonic was definitely not in that league. a lil disappointed but whatever...no big deal. the rest of the day was pure on chillaxing. did nothing but stay home and watch some football and sitcoms. it was great.
Tuesday....woke up and had some awesome biscuits and gravy. mmmm...were they yummy! after breakfast we started talking about the wedding. discovered that danny already had godparents in mind. didnt think he was gonna do it...but surprise...surprise he asked em over the phone. i'm pretty happy about that. he's taking an active role....great! went through the details of the wedding, shared the photographs that i had and even gave her color swatches. after discussing the wedding we decided to head out and search for a lingerie bag. unfortunately we probably went to every major store in town to discover that some people dont know what a lingerie bag is. darn it. but daniel told me that whatever i forgot we would be able to buy there. ha...so not true. i would have been assed out big time if i really needed it. that night we had a family dinner at the house. daniels brother's family came and his cousin jessica. nice people except for one....whom i wish not to name. but she's a one upper. i dont like those kinds of people. but anyway, dinner was superb. the lady can cook! some serious cooking. i was looking forward to the good food...after all danny was saying about it. was totally true. so i met most the family that night. nice people. the rest of the night was spend watching the nuggets game.
Wednesday...woke up to another scrumptious breakfast. but best of all, to some snow! we decided to do laundry. in the midst of it danny wanted to take me to chalk cliff and to st elmo...way back in the woods. beautiful scenery though. thats all there is in that area...beautiful scenery. got some great shots. got back after an hour or so...to find out his mom folded our laundry...ordinarily i wouldnt have a problem with it, but there's something about your future mom-in-law folding your intimate apparel...that i dont like. i dont mind her folding my clothes but she neednt see the kind of underwear i wear. i'm sure she was shocked, but it was a little disturbing. anyway, i got over it though...a day later. we spent the rest of the day watching mr brooks and some tv. more chillaxing.
Thursday...turkey day. we spend thanksgiving at the purple sage. it was a nice place to have a turkey meal. buffet style. good food. kinda miss having home cooked meal though. i was looking forward to turkey day the most cause of that, but they decided to have it elsewhere to cut down on time for preparation and dishes and all that other stuff. not a bad idea for such a huge party. after lunch we ended up at matts house for some games. i tell you, these people are gamers. they have almost every game imaginable. i'm not a huge game person, but i'm learning now that i need to be. didnt know how to play the games they had. it was horrible looking on my part. but its ok. i'll ease into it. it'll only be once a year that i'll have to do this. so i think i can manage one way or another. the rest of the night was spent watching gray's anatomy and another movie we rented.
Friday...the most exciting day by far. we headed out early to get to colorado springs where we visited and i met his grandma young. sweet old lady. i hope she's doing well. she was going into surgery the morning we left colorado for hip surgery again. before the visit we went to donna's favorite restaurant...red lobster. it was good. its always good. i wasnt impressed with what i ordered but it was eatable. after colorado springs we made our journey to denver...more specifically the pepsi center where we watched the nuggets vs timerwolves. it was a nerve racking game. they looked like they were gonna lose, but they pulled through and won. we had some awesome seats. i had a blast. i finally got my first nugget apparel...a hoodie and a hat. danny got the same. it was really neat. definately worth the long drive of a few hours...in the snow. we got in real late and hit the sack.
Saturday...we got up, showered and headed out the door to make our way back to san diego. we made it home sunday morning at 118am. danny drove 10 hours to vegas and i took over the wheel and got us home.
great trip. did a lot of relaxing...and now i can finally say, i met his parents....the wedding is still on for may. the best thing of the trip was the nugget game and the snow...the worse part of the trip is the drive up and the drive back down. i'll get used to it. we'll be making annual visits over the holidays in the years to come....thank god we dont have kids yet...that would make for a really long trip.
Sunday....the week had a long long start to it....a thousand mile drive which ended up being about 16 hours. we drove through california, nevada, arizona, utah and colorado to get to a one stop light town named buena vista. its quite a small town, but not as small as most towns we saw enroute. anyhow, we left here sunday morning at 4:40....and arrived there about 9 in the evening. i slept here and there but was awake for the most part towards the end of the trip where i wished i would have slept. the switch backs up the mountain were making me and luthor feel yucky. daniel drove the entire way there...he wouldnt let me drive...something told me he wanted to prove is manly driving skills to me that day. ha...well, you proved em well babe. i was very impressed. we stopped about 5 times to gas up our little kia sportage. that car went through hell and back again. daniel picked it up nice and shinny and returned it gritty and grimmy. we arrived at the house, to discover no one was home. wasnt bad...for me at least. i felt a lil at ease...was kinda like...schwoo. shortly after unloading the car, his parents arrived. boy i tell ya, my heart started beating like there were no tomorrow. i didnt look very presentable to his parents...being that i was stuck on my ass for the better part of the day with no where to go but there. i was worried about first impressions with them...those are the ones that last the longest. anyway, daniel and his parents hugged and said hi...and then it was my turn...they hugged and said hi. shocked i was....didnt think i'd get a hug so quick from them. they were very at ease about everything. it was almost like we already met before somewhere. for the rest of the night, i was definitely on my toes. didnt really speak unless spoken to...that type of deal. we ate some home cooked meatloaf that was absolutely delish. i normally dont like meat loaf, but the woman made it so well. either that or i was just hungry. i was offered a shower...oh hell yes, i was taking one. definitely wasnt going to turn that down. having been warned that the hot water doesnt last long i was very nervous to take a shower. daniel said hot water only lasts 10 minutes. so here i was...starting to prepare for the long awaited shower...and i'm thinking ...shit...i think i only have enough time to wash my hair and soap half my body. i looked at my razor and said...fuck it....not tonite. so i got in and got out. huhm...funny thing, my shower was more than 10 min...i could have shaved my legs if i wanted it...damn it.
Monday....woke up and got ready to go sightseeing. didnt take long to see the town...a couple of hours if that. beautiful town it was...small but beautiful. took some photos here and there. nothing extravagant. we headed back a little after 12 then decided we would go and eat at sonics...had to do it. i always see the commercials and needed to conquer it. let me tell you, the food was so so. didnt like the burger, liked the tots and loved the shake. it only took us an hour to get to it and then an hour back. it was far....not worth the drive. i would have driven farther for filet mignon and lobster...but sonic was definitely not in that league. a lil disappointed but whatever...no big deal. the rest of the day was pure on chillaxing. did nothing but stay home and watch some football and sitcoms. it was great.
Tuesday....woke up and had some awesome biscuits and gravy. mmmm...were they yummy! after breakfast we started talking about the wedding. discovered that danny already had godparents in mind. didnt think he was gonna do it...but surprise...surprise he asked em over the phone. i'm pretty happy about that. he's taking an active role....great! went through the details of the wedding, shared the photographs that i had and even gave her color swatches. after discussing the wedding we decided to head out and search for a lingerie bag. unfortunately we probably went to every major store in town to discover that some people dont know what a lingerie bag is. darn it. but daniel told me that whatever i forgot we would be able to buy there. ha...so not true. i would have been assed out big time if i really needed it. that night we had a family dinner at the house. daniels brother's family came and his cousin jessica. nice people except for one....whom i wish not to name. but she's a one upper. i dont like those kinds of people. but anyway, dinner was superb. the lady can cook! some serious cooking. i was looking forward to the good food...after all danny was saying about it. was totally true. so i met most the family that night. nice people. the rest of the night was spend watching the nuggets game.
Wednesday...woke up to another scrumptious breakfast. but best of all, to some snow! we decided to do laundry. in the midst of it danny wanted to take me to chalk cliff and to st elmo...way back in the woods. beautiful scenery though. thats all there is in that area...beautiful scenery. got some great shots. got back after an hour or so...to find out his mom folded our laundry...ordinarily i wouldnt have a problem with it, but there's something about your future mom-in-law folding your intimate apparel...that i dont like. i dont mind her folding my clothes but she neednt see the kind of underwear i wear. i'm sure she was shocked, but it was a little disturbing. anyway, i got over it though...a day later. we spent the rest of the day watching mr brooks and some tv. more chillaxing.
Thursday...turkey day. we spend thanksgiving at the purple sage. it was a nice place to have a turkey meal. buffet style. good food. kinda miss having home cooked meal though. i was looking forward to turkey day the most cause of that, but they decided to have it elsewhere to cut down on time for preparation and dishes and all that other stuff. not a bad idea for such a huge party. after lunch we ended up at matts house for some games. i tell you, these people are gamers. they have almost every game imaginable. i'm not a huge game person, but i'm learning now that i need to be. didnt know how to play the games they had. it was horrible looking on my part. but its ok. i'll ease into it. it'll only be once a year that i'll have to do this. so i think i can manage one way or another. the rest of the night was spent watching gray's anatomy and another movie we rented.
Friday...the most exciting day by far. we headed out early to get to colorado springs where we visited and i met his grandma young. sweet old lady. i hope she's doing well. she was going into surgery the morning we left colorado for hip surgery again. before the visit we went to donna's favorite restaurant...red lobster. it was good. its always good. i wasnt impressed with what i ordered but it was eatable. after colorado springs we made our journey to denver...more specifically the pepsi center where we watched the nuggets vs timerwolves. it was a nerve racking game. they looked like they were gonna lose, but they pulled through and won. we had some awesome seats. i had a blast. i finally got my first nugget apparel...a hoodie and a hat. danny got the same. it was really neat. definately worth the long drive of a few hours...in the snow. we got in real late and hit the sack.
Saturday...we got up, showered and headed out the door to make our way back to san diego. we made it home sunday morning at 118am. danny drove 10 hours to vegas and i took over the wheel and got us home.
great trip. did a lot of relaxing...and now i can finally say, i met his parents....the wedding is still on for may. the best thing of the trip was the nugget game and the snow...the worse part of the trip is the drive up and the drive back down. i'll get used to it. we'll be making annual visits over the holidays in the years to come....thank god we dont have kids yet...that would make for a really long trip.
Saturday, November 17, 2007
4.5 hours
nearly 4 and a half hours to go before we load up the car and head to colorado....to meet the parents. you betcha i am nervous as hell. i dont know why i am so nervous. maybe it has to do with these folks being daniel's parents...and that we're getting married in six months. its scary because.....well it just is damnit. i dont know how to explain it.
daniel created a diversion for us....for black friday. he booked tickets to the nuggets vs timberwolves at the pepsi center in denver at 7pm. i am so excited....and we're going with his parents...some common ground. but its a diversion, gets us out the house and into something we like doing....watching basketball. i get to see kleiza...aka...hot guys...play some ball in his home court. hopefully they kill the other team.
so it appears that we will be spending thanksgiving at his brother's house. a new house and his brother's first thanksgiving in the house...so its special to everyone. i'm excited about thanksgiving. i love turkey and all the fixin's. hopefully it'll be scrumptuous.
i dont think my family here is having a thanksgiving. i guess my sis-in-law is not doing so well, health wise. she recently had her gallbladder removed and is having a slow recovery....and being that thanksgiving is literally around the corner, i doubt they'll be fixin the traditional thanksgiving lunch. so i dont know what my family is doing. i dont think my mom is hosting it at her house, so they may just go out to dinner or do something real basic at the house. my oldest brother is already in town from arizona for the holidays, my youngest older brother is arriving back into town for the holidays and well, the second oldest is in town and the third oldest hasnt spent thanksgiving with us since he moved to the east coast. i hope he and his family have a wonderful thanksgiving.
anyway, i am all packed up except for a sweater that is in the dryer...that is still not dry yet....so i am waiting up for it. danny is passed out on the couch and luthor...he's already in bed waiting for us. he thinks he's gonna be left behind again...but he's in for a surprise....cause he's coming with us and dont even know it.
anyway, i better get the rest of the odds and ends together...and get to sleep. with me luck with meeting them -in-laws....i'll need....
daniel created a diversion for us....for black friday. he booked tickets to the nuggets vs timberwolves at the pepsi center in denver at 7pm. i am so excited....and we're going with his parents...some common ground. but its a diversion, gets us out the house and into something we like doing....watching basketball. i get to see kleiza...aka...hot guys...play some ball in his home court. hopefully they kill the other team.
so it appears that we will be spending thanksgiving at his brother's house. a new house and his brother's first thanksgiving in the house...so its special to everyone. i'm excited about thanksgiving. i love turkey and all the fixin's. hopefully it'll be scrumptuous.
i dont think my family here is having a thanksgiving. i guess my sis-in-law is not doing so well, health wise. she recently had her gallbladder removed and is having a slow recovery....and being that thanksgiving is literally around the corner, i doubt they'll be fixin the traditional thanksgiving lunch. so i dont know what my family is doing. i dont think my mom is hosting it at her house, so they may just go out to dinner or do something real basic at the house. my oldest brother is already in town from arizona for the holidays, my youngest older brother is arriving back into town for the holidays and well, the second oldest is in town and the third oldest hasnt spent thanksgiving with us since he moved to the east coast. i hope he and his family have a wonderful thanksgiving.
anyway, i am all packed up except for a sweater that is in the dryer...that is still not dry yet....so i am waiting up for it. danny is passed out on the couch and luthor...he's already in bed waiting for us. he thinks he's gonna be left behind again...but he's in for a surprise....cause he's coming with us and dont even know it.
anyway, i better get the rest of the odds and ends together...and get to sleep. with me luck with meeting them -in-laws....i'll need....
Friday, November 16, 2007
1 day
today is finally friday...schwoo...finally! vacation officially begins....but it brings me closer to sunday and closer to meeting the --in-laws..... yep you got it, nervousness creeping back in me. maybe i'll fall asleep on the ride over and just not have to think about it..and awaken when we are finally there then be in a stupor from the sleep. ha. ya right. i'll probably be up 80% of the way...just maybe danny will let me do some driving. but who knows.
i've got some religious obligation to tend to tonight and the better part of tomorrow then its packing time for colorado. on tuesday, while we are there, there is supposed to be a snow storm. man...that will be new to me. not sure what that is, or how it'll be...but i do know that my ass will be inside next to a fire if not bundled up in blankets. me and the cold dont do very well...i think. i'm not sure...cold for me is like 65 degrees....and here i am going to a place where it dips down to 35...i may freeze to death.
but needless to say, i'm feeling excitement and nervousness at the same time. 1 day to go...
i've got some religious obligation to tend to tonight and the better part of tomorrow then its packing time for colorado. on tuesday, while we are there, there is supposed to be a snow storm. man...that will be new to me. not sure what that is, or how it'll be...but i do know that my ass will be inside next to a fire if not bundled up in blankets. me and the cold dont do very well...i think. i'm not sure...cold for me is like 65 degrees....and here i am going to a place where it dips down to 35...i may freeze to death.
but needless to say, i'm feeling excitement and nervousness at the same time. 1 day to go...
Thursday, November 15, 2007
nervous
tomorrow is my 7th day working...and man, i am feeling it. today dragged all day...no customers to tend to, nor any problems. its was a nice day, but a very boring one. i cant even tell you what i did today because i really didnt do anything. however, i did push in some carts and thats about it, i was actually happy to do it because i didnt have a chance to go to the gym this morning...i did a some ab work and weights at home, but not a full blown workout.
for the past few weeks now, well - ever since we got back from ireland, i've been thinking about this colorado trip. i am nervous as all hell. i've never met daniel's parents. this sunday will be my first face-to-face encounter with them. have you any idea how nerve racking this is for me. i've never really had a problem with parents, most parents i meet love me on the spot. i guess this is different, because i dont ever talk to danny's parents. i've talked each of his parents once or twice...and thats all. i've been with daniel now for a year and 7 months on the 21st.
i've gotten to the point that i dont sleep at night thinking about it. there isnt anything i want more than for them to like me. its hard when you dont get a long with your in-laws. really hard. i dont ever want to be in that position. but then again, i'll only have to see them once a year for a holiday. danny says not to worry, but of course he'll say that, they're his parents. i've just come to the conclusion that they will either hate me or love me...and i'll just have to live with what they decide.
the plan for the trip is to leave about 4am sunday morning, in hopes to get there by 9pm in the evening. we are driving straight through, stopping now and again to get something to eat, take a potty break, let luthor out, and to stretch our legs...oh and gas...how can i forget the oh so expensive gas now a days. so wish me luck, because i will be needing it for sure.
trust me when i say that i will be nervous until sunday about 9pm when we finally arrive in buena vista, colorado and the young residence.....
stay tuned for the next blog, it ought to be when i am in colorado...
for the past few weeks now, well - ever since we got back from ireland, i've been thinking about this colorado trip. i am nervous as all hell. i've never met daniel's parents. this sunday will be my first face-to-face encounter with them. have you any idea how nerve racking this is for me. i've never really had a problem with parents, most parents i meet love me on the spot. i guess this is different, because i dont ever talk to danny's parents. i've talked each of his parents once or twice...and thats all. i've been with daniel now for a year and 7 months on the 21st.
i've gotten to the point that i dont sleep at night thinking about it. there isnt anything i want more than for them to like me. its hard when you dont get a long with your in-laws. really hard. i dont ever want to be in that position. but then again, i'll only have to see them once a year for a holiday. danny says not to worry, but of course he'll say that, they're his parents. i've just come to the conclusion that they will either hate me or love me...and i'll just have to live with what they decide.
the plan for the trip is to leave about 4am sunday morning, in hopes to get there by 9pm in the evening. we are driving straight through, stopping now and again to get something to eat, take a potty break, let luthor out, and to stretch our legs...oh and gas...how can i forget the oh so expensive gas now a days. so wish me luck, because i will be needing it for sure.
trust me when i say that i will be nervous until sunday about 9pm when we finally arrive in buena vista, colorado and the young residence.....
stay tuned for the next blog, it ought to be when i am in colorado...
Saturday, November 10, 2007
Downtown
it has been a long while since dan and i have been out. well, to downtown at least. we usually frequent ocean beach, as it is a much more casual and relaxing place to be. but tonite, we've been invited to have dinner for janice's birthday at sushi ito in downtown off of f street. i think the last time we were downtown was for the padre game against the rockies back in september. it'll be a lil different this time around. dan hasnt really had a chance to really go out with any of my friends...actually we hardly ever go out with my friends...we are always meeting up with his. timing i guess is the cause of that, or maybe dan just doesnt like going out with my friends. who knows. who cares really.
so sushi ito....sushi for the second time this week. i'm surprised i'm not more excited. i love sushi. not sure why i'm not looking forward to this outing. i guess it has a lot to do with downtown. downtown really isnt my place. it was way back in the day when i was way younger, but no i have learned that i like the more laid back scene. i like a place where i can be my usual jeans and t type of wear. we'll see...maybe a new job on the horizon will change all that.
well, i best doll up now so we can hit the downtown scene. ...sushi ito here we come...oh and happy birthday janice!
so sushi ito....sushi for the second time this week. i'm surprised i'm not more excited. i love sushi. not sure why i'm not looking forward to this outing. i guess it has a lot to do with downtown. downtown really isnt my place. it was way back in the day when i was way younger, but no i have learned that i like the more laid back scene. i like a place where i can be my usual jeans and t type of wear. we'll see...maybe a new job on the horizon will change all that.
well, i best doll up now so we can hit the downtown scene. ...sushi ito here we come...oh and happy birthday janice!
Wednesday, November 7, 2007
Communication
topic on hand...COMMUNICATION...how does such a word fall so deeply on to the gray side of things. One phrase can mean different things to different people....and why is that? why have communication when all you're going to do is get lost in the meaning intended? the funny thing, i think, is that we need communication to maintain order. Order in society, order within a family, order within a relationship/marriage, order within the work place, and so on. Yet it is the same communication that fucks things up. its what makes people angry, its how people perceive things differently, its what makes people tick! how can this be?
here's my suggestions on the topic>>>>>
1. tone. the tone in which one says something can definitely contribute to how something is perceived, understood and taken. when one's tone is derogatory, then the one listening to it may feel they have been beaten down with words. when one is authoritative, the one listening to it may feel they are to obey and fall in line with what was said. when one's tone is complainative (yes i probably made this word up), the one listening may feel like they're listening to an endless bitch session.
2. perception. perception is yet the other key, i think, how communication falls into the gray scale. when one laughs when one is talking, it can be rude if the matter at hand is important to the speaker. the key to this -is importance of what is being said....one may think the matter is important yet the other does not. how can people tell? you cant. its simple as that. so perception in itself is gray.
3. animation. hand gestures can, usually be, a tell tale sign of the tone of the conversation. thoughtful hand gestures are usually present in a normal conversation in which both parties are enjoying the conversation. violent hand gestures usually mean that the lines of communication are urgent or confrontational. usually not a good thing. no hand gestures...well, some people just dont use them.
why am i getting into the lines of communication, you ask? because communication can be so fucked up. the ways in which i communicate arent always successful with what i am trying to get across to the other person. this usually turns into something where i've hurt someone's feelings or someone gestures back in a not so nice way and in turn hurts my feelings.
what ever happened to this phrase: you can talk to me about anything, i'm here for you. i've learned that phrase to not always be true. sometimes people say that just to be nice at the moment, but when all is said and done, and you finally break down and let loose, they put you down. not a very good feeling....then means of communication have been forfeited....cause if you're like me...i just shut down and start harboring things inside, which we all know is not always a good thing.
i've always had the problem of not speaking out what i feel, until about a year and a half ago when i went through some life altering changes. its always been a problem for me since i can remember. i usually keep my troubles, heart ache, frustrations and anger to myself. ..because of the simple fact that i dont want to burden anyone else with my troubles or have the fear of being misinterpreted by the listener. i also have learned over the years that it turns you into a ticking time bomb ready to go off at anyone at any time. but why share your thoughts and feelings when in the end all you get is laughed at or ridiculed?. why? so now, i am learning all over again, that you really cant let loose and talk to people without judgment. you just cant. because if you can, then people wouldnt be up all night thinking about events that occurred to them and how it has effected them in a manner that is bothersome.
so having tried out both outlets...i've learned now that its just better to keep things to yourself. it saves you time. it can save an argument. it can save misconception...it can save a mouthful of words wasted....
here's my suggestions on the topic>>>>>
1. tone. the tone in which one says something can definitely contribute to how something is perceived, understood and taken. when one's tone is derogatory, then the one listening to it may feel they have been beaten down with words. when one is authoritative, the one listening to it may feel they are to obey and fall in line with what was said. when one's tone is complainative (yes i probably made this word up), the one listening may feel like they're listening to an endless bitch session.
2. perception. perception is yet the other key, i think, how communication falls into the gray scale. when one laughs when one is talking, it can be rude if the matter at hand is important to the speaker. the key to this -is importance of what is being said....one may think the matter is important yet the other does not. how can people tell? you cant. its simple as that. so perception in itself is gray.
3. animation. hand gestures can, usually be, a tell tale sign of the tone of the conversation. thoughtful hand gestures are usually present in a normal conversation in which both parties are enjoying the conversation. violent hand gestures usually mean that the lines of communication are urgent or confrontational. usually not a good thing. no hand gestures...well, some people just dont use them.
why am i getting into the lines of communication, you ask? because communication can be so fucked up. the ways in which i communicate arent always successful with what i am trying to get across to the other person. this usually turns into something where i've hurt someone's feelings or someone gestures back in a not so nice way and in turn hurts my feelings.
what ever happened to this phrase: you can talk to me about anything, i'm here for you. i've learned that phrase to not always be true. sometimes people say that just to be nice at the moment, but when all is said and done, and you finally break down and let loose, they put you down. not a very good feeling....then means of communication have been forfeited....cause if you're like me...i just shut down and start harboring things inside, which we all know is not always a good thing.
i've always had the problem of not speaking out what i feel, until about a year and a half ago when i went through some life altering changes. its always been a problem for me since i can remember. i usually keep my troubles, heart ache, frustrations and anger to myself. ..because of the simple fact that i dont want to burden anyone else with my troubles or have the fear of being misinterpreted by the listener. i also have learned over the years that it turns you into a ticking time bomb ready to go off at anyone at any time. but why share your thoughts and feelings when in the end all you get is laughed at or ridiculed?. why? so now, i am learning all over again, that you really cant let loose and talk to people without judgment. you just cant. because if you can, then people wouldnt be up all night thinking about events that occurred to them and how it has effected them in a manner that is bothersome.
so having tried out both outlets...i've learned now that its just better to keep things to yourself. it saves you time. it can save an argument. it can save misconception...it can save a mouthful of words wasted....
Tuesday, November 6, 2007
Preparations
the month of november has finally arrived...which marks 6 months before the wedding. the planning is in full swing, more so than ever before. i have been able to get a lot of things done. my to-do-list is getting shorter and shorter...thank GOD. i never thought i would see the light at the end of this tunnel. planning a wedding by yourself is f-ing difficult. i dont recommend it to anyone...so all you young boys and gals, start saving for a wedding planner...cause them bitches are expensive. to date...i only have to pick out invitations and tuxedos...and minor odds and ends that wont take long.
this thursday i am taking my girls in to get fitted for their dresses...and that in itself will be a huge relief, cause that means that the tuxedos will be next. however, i need to get on danny about making time to go pick out invites soon. the boy lags sometimes. i cant wait till all this planning is done and over with. seriously! i dont understand how people can do this for a living...but i guess if the price is right then all else doesnt really matter.
this month, i have another huge event happening in my life. i will, for the first time, be meeting my future in-laws. man that has a weird ring to it. i've only talked to donna twice and roger once. we are spending about 5 whole days over there. i just hope that things go well. i know that the wedding may be an issue with it being catholic and large. i just dont want to have to feel that i have to defend my ways when i get to colorado. there's a part of me thats already building that wall of defense...why? i'm not sure. i guess its because i dont know what to expect. i do know that this trip will probably not be hunky dory as most trips. there's a dominant feeling of nervousness and uneasiness that lingers within me. i hope for my sake, that i'm just over reacting.
i guess in a sense, i dont have that excited feel with the wedding as i thought i would have. dont get me wrong, but theres a bone or two in my body thats excited...and well...the other bones...arent really...they dont know what to feel. it seems, sometimes, that its a waste of time and just a hassle with everyone. one family wants large, the other family wants small. one family is religious, the other is not. i wonder if this will cause major problems between the families as the wedding approaches and even later down the line in the future. i dont have answers to that, and thats probably what scares me the most.
back to thanksgiving...this is my first thanksgiving with danny's family. so it will be fun to see what his family does for thanksgiving. i hear that card games are a biggie. i hope all goes well. i know he's really excited to go home for thanksgiving. he's excited to see family again and to just soak in the mountain scape that he grew up with. it'll be nice to see him relax in his own mountain man world. he needs a breather...i hope this trip will relax him.
this thursday i am taking my girls in to get fitted for their dresses...and that in itself will be a huge relief, cause that means that the tuxedos will be next. however, i need to get on danny about making time to go pick out invites soon. the boy lags sometimes. i cant wait till all this planning is done and over with. seriously! i dont understand how people can do this for a living...but i guess if the price is right then all else doesnt really matter.
this month, i have another huge event happening in my life. i will, for the first time, be meeting my future in-laws. man that has a weird ring to it. i've only talked to donna twice and roger once. we are spending about 5 whole days over there. i just hope that things go well. i know that the wedding may be an issue with it being catholic and large. i just dont want to have to feel that i have to defend my ways when i get to colorado. there's a part of me thats already building that wall of defense...why? i'm not sure. i guess its because i dont know what to expect. i do know that this trip will probably not be hunky dory as most trips. there's a dominant feeling of nervousness and uneasiness that lingers within me. i hope for my sake, that i'm just over reacting.
i guess in a sense, i dont have that excited feel with the wedding as i thought i would have. dont get me wrong, but theres a bone or two in my body thats excited...and well...the other bones...arent really...they dont know what to feel. it seems, sometimes, that its a waste of time and just a hassle with everyone. one family wants large, the other family wants small. one family is religious, the other is not. i wonder if this will cause major problems between the families as the wedding approaches and even later down the line in the future. i dont have answers to that, and thats probably what scares me the most.
back to thanksgiving...this is my first thanksgiving with danny's family. so it will be fun to see what his family does for thanksgiving. i hear that card games are a biggie. i hope all goes well. i know he's really excited to go home for thanksgiving. he's excited to see family again and to just soak in the mountain scape that he grew up with. it'll be nice to see him relax in his own mountain man world. he needs a breather...i hope this trip will relax him.
Sunday, October 28, 2007
Deceit
Yesterday was a very weird one. I dont know how to beat around the bush or give you much background on what i am about to cover in this blog, so i will just dive into it and hopefully you'll understand.
About noon yesterday M (the whistler) came up to me in a very somber but questionable fashion. She posed the question: "Christine, why do people portray themselves to be something they are not?" All i could answer was..."they're posers, wannabes, and self-conscious." I left it at that. Never thought anything of it until later.
Soon after my short conversation with Maureen, rumor had it that D (the candy lady) was being fired and arrested. I was shocked. I would have never thought that D would be that type of person. Apparently she was stealing money from the company (embezzlement) and also letting customers obtain merchandise for free. A huge NO NO. Funny thing is that D was talking shit about the LP that morning about how lazy he was and very unproductive he was....and only hours later she was the target of his investigation and productivity for the last couple of weeks if not months. Ironic how shit was talked and the bad are cuffed and escorted away. I do not know the full story and I am not sure i want too. reason being, i liked D. she was a nice person....well the person i knew her to be...and i would much rather keep that perception of her. It definitely was not a fun sight to see her being cuffed and escorted out by 3 uniformed police officers. Everyone in the store knew the situation, not all knew the individual, but everyone knew something wasnt adding up when 3 squad cars should up in front of the store and all headed back to the manager's office.
People are not always what they seem to be. Its unfortunate that I had to see D go away in the way she did. Even now, i still feel that she was wrongly accused and I hope that be true rather than the rumors that are circulating around. I wish her luck in life and hope this clears in her favor...and if not, then i certainly hope that she opts to go the other direction in life as opposed to a life of white collar crime.
About noon yesterday M (the whistler) came up to me in a very somber but questionable fashion. She posed the question: "Christine, why do people portray themselves to be something they are not?" All i could answer was..."they're posers, wannabes, and self-conscious." I left it at that. Never thought anything of it until later.
Soon after my short conversation with Maureen, rumor had it that D (the candy lady) was being fired and arrested. I was shocked. I would have never thought that D would be that type of person. Apparently she was stealing money from the company (embezzlement) and also letting customers obtain merchandise for free. A huge NO NO. Funny thing is that D was talking shit about the LP that morning about how lazy he was and very unproductive he was....and only hours later she was the target of his investigation and productivity for the last couple of weeks if not months. Ironic how shit was talked and the bad are cuffed and escorted away. I do not know the full story and I am not sure i want too. reason being, i liked D. she was a nice person....well the person i knew her to be...and i would much rather keep that perception of her. It definitely was not a fun sight to see her being cuffed and escorted out by 3 uniformed police officers. Everyone in the store knew the situation, not all knew the individual, but everyone knew something wasnt adding up when 3 squad cars should up in front of the store and all headed back to the manager's office.
People are not always what they seem to be. Its unfortunate that I had to see D go away in the way she did. Even now, i still feel that she was wrongly accused and I hope that be true rather than the rumors that are circulating around. I wish her luck in life and hope this clears in her favor...and if not, then i certainly hope that she opts to go the other direction in life as opposed to a life of white collar crime.
Thursday, October 25, 2007
Post Evacuation
Ive been lazy to write a blog since coming back home. Its one of the most wonderful feelings to come back to the place you call home. Being at mom's house is home too, but it just aint the same anymore. In any case a lot of san diego county as been deemed safe for return except for a few areas where the fire has hit the hardest. I know most of poway was able to return yesterday except for the high valley area and rancho bernardo was given the go ahead in select areas as well. The news now is still bleak. we are hearing now of those that did not make it out alive. Im not sure how i feel about that. People were given a huge amount of time to gather belongings and to flee...however, many chose to stay. It was their choice....so was it their choice to die? I'm not sure, what if in the end they scrambled to get out but no one was around to help? is that a failure on the rescue efforts? Who knows. Needless to say, there are charred bodies showing up in certain areas. My heart goes out to all the families that has lost someone or something in the fires.
I was at work yesterday, and i came across a guy who had lost his home. This dude was in his mid twenties, gather supplies to clear away debris so as to sift through it and find what he can salvage. My heart really went out to him. Its unfortunate how many homes were consumed by these fires. But to actually talk to someone who has to start from square one all over again...what do you say? nothing can console them? nothing can make things better...not immediately at least. Not only did i come across a man that lost his home...I came across a man who faulted that guy for living in that area. How horrible is that. The comment this elderly man made about the younger guy made by jaw drop to the floor. I was so amazed at how cold he was. He blamed him for living in that area and faulted him. This stems, i believe, from the not so wealthy feeling good that the wealthy lost everything. Sick fucks! In the next days and weeks, i will be seeing first hand, families coming into my work to rebuild their homes. theres nothing more i can do, but to help them find what they need.
Life around town is slowly getting back to what it once was. The chaos is slowly lifting. Soon lives will be slowly pieced back together....
I was at work yesterday, and i came across a guy who had lost his home. This dude was in his mid twenties, gather supplies to clear away debris so as to sift through it and find what he can salvage. My heart really went out to him. Its unfortunate how many homes were consumed by these fires. But to actually talk to someone who has to start from square one all over again...what do you say? nothing can console them? nothing can make things better...not immediately at least. Not only did i come across a man that lost his home...I came across a man who faulted that guy for living in that area. How horrible is that. The comment this elderly man made about the younger guy made by jaw drop to the floor. I was so amazed at how cold he was. He blamed him for living in that area and faulted him. This stems, i believe, from the not so wealthy feeling good that the wealthy lost everything. Sick fucks! In the next days and weeks, i will be seeing first hand, families coming into my work to rebuild their homes. theres nothing more i can do, but to help them find what they need.
Life around town is slowly getting back to what it once was. The chaos is slowly lifting. Soon lives will be slowly pieced back together....
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
all packed up...round 2
We are all packed up here at my mom's house...ready for what could be the inevitable. Daniel and I sought refuge here...and here we are again...packing the cars. This time in a greater magnitude. We have packed up most the photos...my parents only wedding portraits left, photos of our childhood, photos of the grandkids, and grandparents. The xterra is jam packed with things that are important to us; to my parents and to me. My dogs are harnessed and ready to go, the bird is in its cage and shiloh, we'll grab him on the way out.
Mt. Miguel once was just a name I identified to my high school. Now its the mountain burning in front of my parent's house. Daniel came into my room about 3am and said the ridge of the mountain is burning. I walked out and was just startled...i dont know why...i guess i didnt want to believe it. But when i seen it, my whole body trembled for a brief moment. At that moment, i woke my parents and told them to get ready for the worse case scenario...here we are 3 hours later...waiting to go. We have not had the reverse 9-1-1 call as of yet. But we know its close. Mt Miguel is practically almost all charred. The fire really has no where else to go, but to the reservoir and to the surrounding populated areas. Bonita and Sunnyside is in imminent danger. Dictionary Hill has been evacuated. The fire is coming really close...too close to comfort.
This experience this morning is more surreal than yesterday. My parents are in a frenzy, they were absolutely sure that the fire wouldn't head this way...my oh my were they taken by surprise. My dad really did not know what do...my mom packed almost everything. Nonetheless, we got everything that means something to us. The phones are on the charger and we are ready to roll.
All this has really got me stressed out. my stomach has pains and i haven't slept since noon yesterday. my ass is tired. Spuds...you need to go home and pack your shit! get all your important papers, family pics, essentials and necessities and be ready. The fire is coming right at us buddy. Why the hell are you at work? home depot can make it without us! My ass is calling in today...my family is way more important than work! Go save your sister!
In any case, as soon as the sun comes up...we'll see what kind of chance this place has. Hopefully sun up will come soon enough so we can have those air tankers in the air to save spring valley and its surrounding neighborhoods. Imagine 300,000 people have been evacuated. Where do people pick up from here? What happens next? Where will all these people go? As soon as day breaks...more valuable information will be readily available. Hopefully the winds will be more forgiving today...hopefully the fire squads from the north are just on the outskirts of town and are ready to help. I hope things begin to more forward on a positive note....
Thanks to all the firefighters who are risking their lives to save our county....may GOD bless you all.
Mt. Miguel once was just a name I identified to my high school. Now its the mountain burning in front of my parent's house. Daniel came into my room about 3am and said the ridge of the mountain is burning. I walked out and was just startled...i dont know why...i guess i didnt want to believe it. But when i seen it, my whole body trembled for a brief moment. At that moment, i woke my parents and told them to get ready for the worse case scenario...here we are 3 hours later...waiting to go. We have not had the reverse 9-1-1 call as of yet. But we know its close. Mt Miguel is practically almost all charred. The fire really has no where else to go, but to the reservoir and to the surrounding populated areas. Bonita and Sunnyside is in imminent danger. Dictionary Hill has been evacuated. The fire is coming really close...too close to comfort.
This experience this morning is more surreal than yesterday. My parents are in a frenzy, they were absolutely sure that the fire wouldn't head this way...my oh my were they taken by surprise. My dad really did not know what do...my mom packed almost everything. Nonetheless, we got everything that means something to us. The phones are on the charger and we are ready to roll.
All this has really got me stressed out. my stomach has pains and i haven't slept since noon yesterday. my ass is tired. Spuds...you need to go home and pack your shit! get all your important papers, family pics, essentials and necessities and be ready. The fire is coming right at us buddy. Why the hell are you at work? home depot can make it without us! My ass is calling in today...my family is way more important than work! Go save your sister!
In any case, as soon as the sun comes up...we'll see what kind of chance this place has. Hopefully sun up will come soon enough so we can have those air tankers in the air to save spring valley and its surrounding neighborhoods. Imagine 300,000 people have been evacuated. Where do people pick up from here? What happens next? Where will all these people go? As soon as day breaks...more valuable information will be readily available. Hopefully the winds will be more forgiving today...hopefully the fire squads from the north are just on the outskirts of town and are ready to help. I hope things begin to more forward on a positive note....
Thanks to all the firefighters who are risking their lives to save our county....may GOD bless you all.
Monday, October 22, 2007
Evacuated
A long monday as spudies would say it...a long monday since the last blog but more closely, a long monday for an evacuee. Yesterday was the precursor for the events of today. Actually, in all reality, Saturday night would be the precursor. Here's why: anytime the weatherman on any news channel indicates that there will be Santa Ana winds coming through the San Diego area, a fire always sparks. Coincidence? Who knows. Sunday, the Harris fire and the Witch Creek fires may have been the only ones burning....known to the general population. Come Monday morning, practically all of East County San Diego is in flames.
4 years ago, I was also forced to evacuate my home in the Tierrasanta area. During that time, I was living in the El Dorado Hills Apartments. I tell you that was a scare for me. I was not able to grab anything and evacuate, except for the clothes on my back and my purse. I had awaken to a glowing glaze across the skies...not knowing what it was I didnt think any thing of it. Up until my mom called and told me to tune into the news...holy shit...the fires were at Scripps Ranch, just a highway north of me. Next thing I knew, helicopters were flying over head telling everyone to evacuate. Totally surreal at the time. I got in my car and headed to my parents house. For two days I waited, until I was able to go back and survey my place...thank GOD it was untouched by flames. However, the surrounding areas were practically charred. It was one foot away from the apartment complex...one foot!
4 years later...2007...i am in the same situation again. Approximately at 3:30pm it was televised that the Scripps Ranch Area pack up and leave...a mandatory evacuation. The roads were absolutely a disaster. Cars lined up to get onto the highway. It took us seriously, 20 minutes to get onto the I15, when it would normally have taken us 5 minutes or less. This time, I was able to grab what was important and essential to us. Daniel and I left our home in hopes it will still be there tomorrow. So far, no fires in Scripps Ranch, our evacuation was just precautionary and hopefully will remain so. We hope that they will let us back into our homes tomorrow sometime. Being displaced from a place you call home, is never fun. Even when you see refuge at your parent's house...a house i grew up in. Its just not the same.
This by far is the worse fire in San Diego history...i believe it is safe to say that this has outgrown the cedar fires of 2003. The fires are all around the San Diego county. From my moms house, to the north, the Witch fire continues to burn whats in its path, to the east the Harris fire climbs through the rugged terrain making its way to populated areas, to the northeast, the Witch fire continues to be creeping all through Ramona and surrounding areas. The air is filled with smoke. The sense in the air is one of stress and worry....a sense of urgency lingers.
I pray for us all....
4 years ago, I was also forced to evacuate my home in the Tierrasanta area. During that time, I was living in the El Dorado Hills Apartments. I tell you that was a scare for me. I was not able to grab anything and evacuate, except for the clothes on my back and my purse. I had awaken to a glowing glaze across the skies...not knowing what it was I didnt think any thing of it. Up until my mom called and told me to tune into the news...holy shit...the fires were at Scripps Ranch, just a highway north of me. Next thing I knew, helicopters were flying over head telling everyone to evacuate. Totally surreal at the time. I got in my car and headed to my parents house. For two days I waited, until I was able to go back and survey my place...thank GOD it was untouched by flames. However, the surrounding areas were practically charred. It was one foot away from the apartment complex...one foot!
4 years later...2007...i am in the same situation again. Approximately at 3:30pm it was televised that the Scripps Ranch Area pack up and leave...a mandatory evacuation. The roads were absolutely a disaster. Cars lined up to get onto the highway. It took us seriously, 20 minutes to get onto the I15, when it would normally have taken us 5 minutes or less. This time, I was able to grab what was important and essential to us. Daniel and I left our home in hopes it will still be there tomorrow. So far, no fires in Scripps Ranch, our evacuation was just precautionary and hopefully will remain so. We hope that they will let us back into our homes tomorrow sometime. Being displaced from a place you call home, is never fun. Even when you see refuge at your parent's house...a house i grew up in. Its just not the same.
This by far is the worse fire in San Diego history...i believe it is safe to say that this has outgrown the cedar fires of 2003. The fires are all around the San Diego county. From my moms house, to the north, the Witch fire continues to burn whats in its path, to the east the Harris fire climbs through the rugged terrain making its way to populated areas, to the northeast, the Witch fire continues to be creeping all through Ramona and surrounding areas. The air is filled with smoke. The sense in the air is one of stress and worry....a sense of urgency lingers.
I pray for us all....
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
My monday
Today is my monday at work. i'm not too thrilled about going in today. i had a rough start to the day...the damn gardeners started really bright and early this morning cut the hedges around the window i sleep by. fuckers! dont they know people are still sleeping at 8am. after being rudely awaken, i got dressed and headed to the gym. the gym wasnt so bad except for the fat dude that decided to work out next to me. i really dont think fat people know they stink. granted its a gym, but this man was stanky before he even started. i cut my workout a lil short and did some strengthening exercises just so i can escape the must. note to self...workout 30 min earlier or later to avoid stank guy. having finished my workout, i came home to find out that them damn gardeners still arent finished doing the hedge work...what the fuck people. get your shit together...cut and move the fuck on.
moody already...just great. it'll make for a nice day at work today...not mention that i just started ragging...watch the fuck out you shit customers, its on. i've got that bad ass attitude today and i'm not afraid to use it. what are they gonna do fire me....ya fucking right, they cant afford to lose me. my work is so fucking desperate for workers right now, they dont give a rats ass what i say or do. granted they'll talk to me and say, hey no....lets try and keep it down, other wise good going. we've officially lost joel at the desk...and again we're down to 3. i seriously cant wait till ireland...them bitches are gonna be fucked with just 2 people. best part is i dont give a shit...its about time they see what kind of clusterfuck they're gonna be in. my mission after ireland...find a new job. a job that is monday through friday. i dont care much about the hours, but monday to friday is key for me.
i'm tired of not having enough danny time. for the past couple of months its been at its absolute minimum. i come home, chill for a couple of hours on the couch, then its off to bed...seriously, when we're only getting a few hours of quality time together, the work load has got to change. i almost feel i'm losing touch with him, that i dont know whats going on, that i dont know who he is. why...because i see him for a few hours, the other hours are spent in dream land apart. so that doesnt help me much. i'd like to be able to come home, have a nice dinner watch a movie together, walk the dog, laugh and live and just chill. the good old days before i was working. those were the best.
so we have a little less than 2 weeks to go before ireland. i cant wait. i need the vacation. more desperately than i thought. it'll be nice to be on your own time, ya know. be able to wake up and just mosey around a foreign town. it'll be so much fun.
the wedding has come to a slow slow slow process now. i havent done anything as of yet. i've been lazy...actually i just dont feel like dealing with it yet. it can very stressful to think about. okay it is stressful to think about.
well...happy monday to me...
moody already...just great. it'll make for a nice day at work today...not mention that i just started ragging...watch the fuck out you shit customers, its on. i've got that bad ass attitude today and i'm not afraid to use it. what are they gonna do fire me....ya fucking right, they cant afford to lose me. my work is so fucking desperate for workers right now, they dont give a rats ass what i say or do. granted they'll talk to me and say, hey no....lets try and keep it down, other wise good going. we've officially lost joel at the desk...and again we're down to 3. i seriously cant wait till ireland...them bitches are gonna be fucked with just 2 people. best part is i dont give a shit...its about time they see what kind of clusterfuck they're gonna be in. my mission after ireland...find a new job. a job that is monday through friday. i dont care much about the hours, but monday to friday is key for me.
i'm tired of not having enough danny time. for the past couple of months its been at its absolute minimum. i come home, chill for a couple of hours on the couch, then its off to bed...seriously, when we're only getting a few hours of quality time together, the work load has got to change. i almost feel i'm losing touch with him, that i dont know whats going on, that i dont know who he is. why...because i see him for a few hours, the other hours are spent in dream land apart. so that doesnt help me much. i'd like to be able to come home, have a nice dinner watch a movie together, walk the dog, laugh and live and just chill. the good old days before i was working. those were the best.
so we have a little less than 2 weeks to go before ireland. i cant wait. i need the vacation. more desperately than i thought. it'll be nice to be on your own time, ya know. be able to wake up and just mosey around a foreign town. it'll be so much fun.
the wedding has come to a slow slow slow process now. i havent done anything as of yet. i've been lazy...actually i just dont feel like dealing with it yet. it can very stressful to think about. okay it is stressful to think about.
well...happy monday to me...
Friday, July 27, 2007
blah blah blah
Where do i begin? I've been meaning to write a blog on this spot for a while now. a lot has happened in the past couple of weeks. lets begin with the infamous workplace. yes, the hell hole that pays my bills. it is quite a hell hole. no one understands that until they've been drawn in and suffered what it has to offer...which is not much. this past week, i lost a friend of mine at the desk. she really was an anchor for me there because she knew just about everything and anything. which was fantastic because i can alway turn to her for help. during the down time (god forbid we have down time), we would shoot the shit. talk about how much we hated work, how management was a bunch of hyprocrits, and how our pay was so shitty. but seriously we do a lot of work, for so little pay...its almost like working in a sweatshop, minus the sewing machines and loads of shit to sew. funny thing, management asked me to take over my supervisors position. i know that i will excell at it, just because i know i'm a hard worker and i make sure things get done. but is all the stress and bullshit going to be worth it? i havent to know. afterall, it is a step up in the company. i've done nothing but move forward since i got hired. if only they paid me more...if only. but being that work is stingy with raises, i have a feeling it will not be worth it. but know deep down that i should do it for the work experience. it would look awesome on my resume...thats for sure. ahh fuck it, i'm gonna persue it for what its worth.
from the looks of things, work has really been changing in and out. they've fired a couple of people and have shifted a lot of people around. a lot of the dh's are moving around to gain experience in fields they lack so they can persue a career as an asm. good luck to you people. a shout out to yul, congrats buddy for making head cashier. thats a step up yo! if you need help or have questions dont hesitate to ask. i'm here for you.
wedding planning is definately well on its way. a lot of the planning is done. need a florist and a cake. invites will be easy. the gown i hope will be easy...and its done. not a lot to do. definately knocked out a lot in the past 2 months. which i am thankful for, cause its less shit to do later. now all we's got to do is wait till next year. ahhh.... danny has been pretty excited about things, i think. well it appears. its hard to tell with him. he doesnt show a lot of emotion about it. i guess it hasnt hit or he's keeping it in. but whatever it is, it shows every now and again. guess we'll have to see who has tears in their eyes first on the big day. dont worry honey, i'll bring a tissue for you.
the ireland trip is about 4 weeks away. we're excited kinda...it hasnt hit yet. but it will when we're driving up to LAX or when we're on that nonstop plane ride to ireland. its gonna be fun. a whole new place, brand new things to see, a different culture to experience. it'll be great. i'm gonna really need that vacation after whats going on here.
well,thats all my blabbing this time around. hopefully i'll have more exciting shit to share the next time.
from the looks of things, work has really been changing in and out. they've fired a couple of people and have shifted a lot of people around. a lot of the dh's are moving around to gain experience in fields they lack so they can persue a career as an asm. good luck to you people. a shout out to yul, congrats buddy for making head cashier. thats a step up yo! if you need help or have questions dont hesitate to ask. i'm here for you.
wedding planning is definately well on its way. a lot of the planning is done. need a florist and a cake. invites will be easy. the gown i hope will be easy...and its done. not a lot to do. definately knocked out a lot in the past 2 months. which i am thankful for, cause its less shit to do later. now all we's got to do is wait till next year. ahhh.... danny has been pretty excited about things, i think. well it appears. its hard to tell with him. he doesnt show a lot of emotion about it. i guess it hasnt hit or he's keeping it in. but whatever it is, it shows every now and again. guess we'll have to see who has tears in their eyes first on the big day. dont worry honey, i'll bring a tissue for you.
the ireland trip is about 4 weeks away. we're excited kinda...it hasnt hit yet. but it will when we're driving up to LAX or when we're on that nonstop plane ride to ireland. its gonna be fun. a whole new place, brand new things to see, a different culture to experience. it'll be great. i'm gonna really need that vacation after whats going on here.
well,thats all my blabbing this time around. hopefully i'll have more exciting shit to share the next time.
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
random
its been a long while since i've last posted. its sad because not a lot has really happened between the last post and this here. i've been lazy is all. its the hours at work that creates the highest peak of laziness with me. apparently i was chosen somehow to do most the closing shifts at work, which i am not to fond of. i hate closing. if i'm not closing my shift ends at 8pm, which is pretty damn near closing. i am the queen of shit shifts at my work. i dont know how the others got the morning schedules favored to them and i got these. as they say, its who you side with at work that makes all the differences, and that is damn true. i'm not an ass kisser. my promotions have been truley deserved becuase of my hard work and not my ability to kiss someone's ass. eh fuck it, i have to tough it out till after the colorado trip before i can move on to bigger and better things. i cannot wait. funny thing is, there's been talk to train me as supervisor...ha....see how long that takes. i'm worried about the promotion...its almost guaranteed.
the wedding planning is going pretty smooth. i've got to book a florist, decide on a cake, shop for my dress, the tuxedos, and the invites and it'll be pretty much done. florist will be easy. cake will not be that hard. the dress will be a bitch to shop for. the tuxedos are even easier. the invites will be the cheapest. no big deal. i've got most the big stuff out of the way. the only thing we're dreading is probably the catholic classes we have to take. oh well. it'll be worth it in the end.
daniel and i are making the best out of the summer. we've been able to explore the socal beaches. its been pretty neat going to and seeing them all. each beach seems to hold a different 'feel' to it. some are family oriented while others are complete 'meat markets.' its amazing to see the differences - being that these beaches are rather close to each other.
at the end of august we've got an ireland trip set up. i think its gonna be great. its our first big trip together out of town and out of country. a whole new atmosphere awaits us. we're both excited about it. i dont think it has hit us quite yet, but it will. we'll have a lot of time to visit around the west side of the country. most importantly, we'll be able to attend mike's wedding.
this is all for now....
the wedding planning is going pretty smooth. i've got to book a florist, decide on a cake, shop for my dress, the tuxedos, and the invites and it'll be pretty much done. florist will be easy. cake will not be that hard. the dress will be a bitch to shop for. the tuxedos are even easier. the invites will be the cheapest. no big deal. i've got most the big stuff out of the way. the only thing we're dreading is probably the catholic classes we have to take. oh well. it'll be worth it in the end.
daniel and i are making the best out of the summer. we've been able to explore the socal beaches. its been pretty neat going to and seeing them all. each beach seems to hold a different 'feel' to it. some are family oriented while others are complete 'meat markets.' its amazing to see the differences - being that these beaches are rather close to each other.
at the end of august we've got an ireland trip set up. i think its gonna be great. its our first big trip together out of town and out of country. a whole new atmosphere awaits us. we're both excited about it. i dont think it has hit us quite yet, but it will. we'll have a lot of time to visit around the west side of the country. most importantly, we'll be able to attend mike's wedding.
this is all for now....
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