Ive been lazy to write a blog since coming back home. Its one of the most wonderful feelings to come back to the place you call home. Being at mom's house is home too, but it just aint the same anymore. In any case a lot of san diego county as been deemed safe for return except for a few areas where the fire has hit the hardest. I know most of poway was able to return yesterday except for the high valley area and rancho bernardo was given the go ahead in select areas as well. The news now is still bleak. we are hearing now of those that did not make it out alive. Im not sure how i feel about that. People were given a huge amount of time to gather belongings and to flee...however, many chose to stay. It was their choice....so was it their choice to die? I'm not sure, what if in the end they scrambled to get out but no one was around to help? is that a failure on the rescue efforts? Who knows. Needless to say, there are charred bodies showing up in certain areas. My heart goes out to all the families that has lost someone or something in the fires.
I was at work yesterday, and i came across a guy who had lost his home. This dude was in his mid twenties, gather supplies to clear away debris so as to sift through it and find what he can salvage. My heart really went out to him. Its unfortunate how many homes were consumed by these fires. But to actually talk to someone who has to start from square one all over again...what do you say? nothing can console them? nothing can make things better...not immediately at least. Not only did i come across a man that lost his home...I came across a man who faulted that guy for living in that area. How horrible is that. The comment this elderly man made about the younger guy made by jaw drop to the floor. I was so amazed at how cold he was. He blamed him for living in that area and faulted him. This stems, i believe, from the not so wealthy feeling good that the wealthy lost everything. Sick fucks! In the next days and weeks, i will be seeing first hand, families coming into my work to rebuild their homes. theres nothing more i can do, but to help them find what they need.
Life around town is slowly getting back to what it once was. The chaos is slowly lifting. Soon lives will be slowly pieced back together....
