Mrs Young

It is one week now that I am a married woman. Totally off the market and untouchable to those who have always dreamt of and fantasized to be with me...sorry dudes! Daniel had won my heart a long time ago and now he has it all to himself. Wow...that was a bit cocky.

7 days now....that I am Mrs. Young. Its quite different. I dont know how i will break the habit of signing my name as a dulay. Its something i wil definitely have to be more conscious about. my work people are making a great effort in breaking me out of it, cause everything around me is YOUNG...they are writing my name as Young, they have changed my name plate to Young and are bugging me to change all my email correspondence to Young. I think I will do most the name changing when I get around to the Social Security Office, DMV and the like. Once I have the name change on Paper and its legal, then I will start changing everything else, but until then I'll be Dulay on paper and Mrs Young to everything else.

How does it feel to be a married woman? everyone seems to be asking me that question. Well...to be quite honest...i dont feel any different. i am who i am and i will always be the same person daniel has met and fallen in love with. i feel the same. its just that now, the bond between us is official for the others. its more permanent so to speak. we have the acknowledgment that we are a married couple, ready to have kids and start a life together. but to dan and me, its always been that...from the beginning stages of our relationship...we've always known we were going to build a life together and have children in the future. nothing new to us, except for we're no longer in a relationship per se, but now a marriage. We're husband and wife. that still sounds funny to me in a way...its not something i thought i'd ever claim on anyone again...and here i am prouder than ever to be daniel's wife and he my husband....

life begins....and will continue as Mrs Young.....

Married

Dan and I are finally married. After a long....and i mean long....year and a half of planning, the hardwork has finally paid off...the sweat i lost and tears i shed were all worth it. the day was beautiful, minus the heat. everything was almost a blurr....just like everybody said it would be.

Dan had most his family here, and it was great to see and be with everyone. afterall, these people are now my in-laws...wow...my in-laws. i have a mom and dad in law...ha. who woulda thought. but the event was gorgeous, well from what i remember at least. everyone said it was a hit, now i'm just waiting to see the different pictures everyone took. a million or so picture must have been snapped that day, and i know we were the center of most of it.

but through it all, i have become a married woman. i now have a proud husband to call my own and thats the best part of it. i love you dan, for everything you are and everything you allow me to be. i cant wait to see what our future holds together....our happiness and joy are endless....

life now finally begins as stressfree....ahhh...what a difference a day makes...

today...

i will vow my love to daniel infront of all our family and friends. daniel has waited 37 years to get married. . .today we wed.

daniel....i am the luckiest girl in the world to be marrying you. you are truly a catch...you're a keeper. i cannot wait until 2pm to marry you.

today will be one of the most beautiful days of our lives....

i love you....with all my heart and being....

8 days.....

man, i missed the 10th day blog....ah well. time really flies when things are in full swing. tomorrow my aunt comes in from germany....and there i think the wedding will become more real to me. right now, i am still in the....planning stages and not so much in the .... i'm getting married in a week stage. plans are definitely coming into motion.

tomorrow is also my bridal shower. i am not having a traditional bridal shower at all...its really casual. i wished to have one, but seeing as though, organization is a problem, that will not happen. but at least we will not be getting kicked out of anywhere.

though i must admit, we are having a bee problem in the household. yes, ladies and gents, you heard me right. we have bees swarming in the house....okay, not swarming, but dammit they're buzzing around. we are totally loss of how they are even getting into the house, so we are still figuring that part out. we are hoping that tomorrow will shed way more light on the situation so we can remedy it ....quickly.

next week tomorrow night is the eve of our wedding day. how exciting...my god, i have so many emotions running through me that i do not even know where to begin to describe them.

danny took me out for our last probably date night as an engaged couple. he finally took me to pf changs. i have never been before and he has always talked about talking me but never has until tonight. we had a great time....the wait was lengthy, but well worth it. the food was great. the bar tender treated us really well, gave danny a free beer and even wine to celebrate our wedding coming up. she was chill! we need to go back and get more shit out of her....

anyway, tonight, we are relaxing...ok trying to relax before the week starts. so here i end this...so i can get more things done so i can chill on the couch and relax....

till the next post....8 days and counting.....

12 Days....

the wedding is less than two weeks away. to be technical its close to something like 11 days and 12 hours or something, but that's just being technical. simplicity sake, its 12 days away. so what does this entail....

a busy two weeks. I have almost everyday booked with something i have to do after work, except for this friday and next monday, but i have a feeling that it will change here shortly. i might take advantage of friday to do some personal errands that need to get done and over with before the big day. monday...will most likely be last minute stuff that i can think of over the weekend. but from here on out i am booked solid. so if you wanna piece of me in the next two weeks, you better call me and reserve some time in my books..otherwise you'll be assed out until after the wedding. sorry folks, there's only one of me and hundreds of you.

ok so this wednesday i'm doing a make up trial to make sure what i want is what i get for the big day. i know make up does not matter to danny....since he always says so, but it matters to me. its my time to shine and look absolutely stunning. hell, i put a lot of fucking hard work into planning this shit, so damn it i'm gonna splruge a lot for beauty. its my way of patting myself on the back.

so much to do, so little time. our guests will start arriving this saturday, yes this saturday, my god thats like 4 days away....then the rest will start trickling in and the bulk of everyone will be here wednesday and thursday. i just hope i get to spend enough time with people i truly care about....like friends i invited and some family and dan's fam and my fam. chances are, i wont, but wishful thinking is always sounds good.

man, i'm getting tired thinking about the next two weeks....remember, friday night before the wedding...cucumbers on my eyes..need to look refreshed for the big day....no alcohol....ok just a little to calm the nerves....and we'll be good.

so 12 days and counting....continue to wish me luck...i am in desperate need of it.

14 days....

two weeks from today i will be a married woman.....or an honest woman as my bro said to me today. kinda weird how that hit me. i am two weeks away from the big day....and its slowly just now hitting me. the waves are in full motion and there's no time for wiping out now.

we met with the our pianist for the wedding ceremony this morning. we picked out some really cool songs for the ceremony. they all sound beautiful and graceful, both of which i hope the day mirrors. it took us all but 30 min to pick out the music. the pianist, i must say, is freaking crazy...okay okay...she's looney. but they say...the loonier the better...almost like geniuses i guess. her music area was in shambles, but the woman knew where almost everything was. though she was out of sorts...but i think that's normal for her. so one thing accomplishes today.

we then got shelves for the pantry we made here at our new home. it really provided a lot of storage space for us....all of which we need to maximize here. but i like the results. we made good use of the $180 daniel spent on it. was way too pricey...didnt think it'd cost that much...but it was money well used.

we then headed to costco on morena boulevard for some lunch and a book sign. note to self, never do that crap again. we waited for nearly an hour and a half for a freaking signature. the man could have had an hour devour waiting for us when we got up to him...seeing as though he was a cook n all... oh well. never doing that again. my hot dog was great. always have a thing for a good hot dog every now and again.

last errand of the day was to meet with the even coordinator at the museum. i havent felt so unprepared throughout the course of this wedding planning until tonite. i didnt have very many answers for the woman's questions. so here i begin my tirad of getting shit done. i even started doing the last of these bells that are left to fix. i think i have about 150 more to go. i need to buy some glue sticks for the glue gun i've got cause i'm almost out. how crappy is that. i think on the way to konos for breakfast, well actually on the way back from konos, dan and i will have to make a pit stop at staples here in our local neighborhood and buy some glue for the thing. i hope that tomorrow will be a very calming day with a lot of output for this wedding.

things to do still
make a schedule for the wedding party
make a schedule for the wedding
email photographer and tell her we need her for an extra hour
email dj and see what his requirements are
email darryl at ebs to make sure the bar is good to go
email sarah and start talking time and specifics with her
email melissa and keep her up to date
call florist and let her know she needs to be at museum at 2pm
start making seating chart
finish bells
start putting attendees gifts together

and a couple dozen more things that i know i'm forgetting but will remember in the middle of the night when all is silent and still.

well i better hit the sack before i end up shutting my eyes here at this keyboard. wish me luck in the next two weeks...better yet pray that i dont have a mental break down and wig out at the last minute. ok...need to go to church and start doing some serious praying....God help me!

two weeks and counting...............

Overwhelmed

16 days and counting down.....

until the big day....our wedding! it's fast approaching and the hours in the day just dont seem long enough. i have a mental list of everything i still need to do, and for some unfathomable reason, nothing on that list has been crossed off. change...life changes...and it continues to change and my poor little mind and body is having a hard time adjusting to such change right now. the 17th will be one of thee happiest days of my life...but everything leading up to it is quite overwhelming at this point. daniel has been and continues to provide all support he can give me in any way possible and i couldnt ask more from him. he has done a great job cheering me on. i just wish it'd be over already.

its quite funny....i read this in an article a few days ago...but the article states that a wedding is not for the bride or groom, its for the guests invited. i never really wanted to look at it that way, but on my drive home today after my last fitting of my gown, it hit me like a ton of bricks. and the sad part is....that statement is so totally true. its kinda depressing actually. the money danny is spending on this wedding is a nice chunk of change we can be placing on a down payment for a house or condo. it truly is and its quite disturbing. i know when danny reads this, he'll chuckle at himself ... and even mumble an i told you so ... or even say we'll she wanted a big wedding and here she is having one... and he's right.

i did want a big wedding. i wanted a huge fabulous wedding with everyone invited...and i know this is the biggest waste of money we'll ever do...but i know in the end it will all have been worth it. i know deep down everything will not go my way, and i'm having a hard time accepting that and probably wont openly admit that, but i'm okay with it. i know regardless of the unforeseen situation, the day will be absolutely beautiful. i'm nervous to meet the rest of the young/sams clan, but thats given. i just hope i'll be a nice addition to the young/sams clan.

the final touches are well underway... the wedding is two weekends from now....16 days. i know that the time will fly by so quickly. so fast i wont even know what hit me....but i have to take it in stride...not for my sake, but dan's sake too. he will probably see me at one of my worse stages in the coming 16 days, and i'm bound to lose some kinds of weight and turn quite a few black hairs to silver ones. but its all comes with the territory. by the end of the month, i will be a married woman. wow....

just breathe....remember to take one breath at a time.....breathe in and breathe out..everything is going to be fine.....