so here i sit, about 40 min to go before i am back out on the road needing to be somewhere. tonite its daniels bball night with the guys. being a great fiancee that i try to be, i try to go to every game for moral support. they're good players, but can be random too.
last night put us over the hump for our precana classes. just two more to go. i cant wait till this thing is finished. i really cant. it has gotten really repetitive and meaningless to me. i am at the point where i am just going with the motions. its so ridiculous that its not funny anymore. and the homework they give...are you serious...its almost a joke...ok it is a joke. these classes are so geared towards kids that have just gotten out of high school, those who dont have a lot of life experience under their belts.
work...man...its almost killing me. i feel like i am starting to live in my cube. i am there 6 days a week. i work a lil over 50 hours a week and probably will continue at this pace until april...as suggested in our last meeting. we were forewarned in the last meeting that all probationers and newbies have to work overtime if they plan on working there next year. so basically i am an overtime bitch for the next god knows how long. but whatever, i need this job. it has damn good benefits and in a weird way they take care of their employees. but its a job that is definitely worth keeping. as much as i am bitching about it now, its cake. it really is and to get paid to do what i do is amazing almost. though it gets boring after 2 hours, good thing i can listen to tunes while i work...its what keeps me paced
this week by far will be one of the busiest weeks ever for me. i have something planned to do after work everyday of this week...that includes the weekends. if i keep going at this pace, with planning the wedding and living life..my ass will be burned out before the wedding. sad part is that i dont even get a break....no honeymoon this year. who knows when we'll be able to take it or if we'll take it at all...it may be something that falls in the cracks as time passes. this wedding has gotten to be not what i expected. i thought i'd be thrilled about it all, but i'm so the opposite. i am waiting for sunday the 18th more than i am the 17th, just so i can breathe a little easier with all the stress off my shoulders. its a whatever for me now....i presume it'll be that way till the day i get married... but then again i cant speak in definitive tones, cause things change...its just the way life is now a days.
on a happier note...the invitations, the ring and coin pillows, the flower girl baskets and our giveaways are ordered. thank heavens!!! now all i have to worry about is the programs, the place cards, the numbers for the tables, and gifts for my girls. oh and i still have to buy a veil, not to mention the rope and other veil. so many little things that i know that i am forgetting. so many...i'm gonna lose my mind here shortly.
well, its almost that time to hit the road and see my honey play some ball.
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Thursday, January 24, 2008
30 days
It is nearly one month since the last post....last year! I never did get around to blogging about christmas. i've just been too busy i guess. there have been a lot of changes in my life and unexpected trials and tribulations also.
my new year began as a very busy one and each week has had a tie to the wedding. the first weekend....danny and i had to attend a seminar on nfp. what is nfp, you ask. It is natural family planning. Its birth control for the hard core catholics out there. unfortunately, i am not a hard core catholic, and i simply rely on the method of birth control pills. But you see, i have never had the notion of being a hard core catholic...even growing up i strayed away from the morals of Catholicism. i know i was definitely going to hell when i lost my virginity back in freshman year of high school. those days seem to almost be a distant past for me now. my niece is a freshman in high school right now...playing basketball as i once did. she's following my footsteps in academics and sports...i just hope she doesnt go off fucking the whole student body by her senior year. i know she has morals...better ones than i had when i was that young.
back to the wedding stuff...so every monday at 7pm since january 7 and up to february 11 - dan and i have been attending evenings for the engaged. these evenings have typically lasted up to 2 hours...in that 2 hours we talk about all kinds of stuff. these evenings for the engaged are supposed to help us self reflect and apply it to our future. in a sense, its supposed to get us ready for the future. i must tell you, the topics are pretty ridiculous. I mean, if you havent talked about some of these topics they bring up then i think you dont have any business getting married to begin with. Thus far, we have talked about characteristics we both like in each other and about each other; characteristics of our family - from how they handled differences to how they handle each other; we've done an exercise on listening and telling; to telling the whole group how we met and why we decided to move in with each other. a lot of the questions are actually quite personal to a degree...its definitely not something i would bring up to a stranger to strike a conversation out of boredom. but whatever, the pope is making us go through this 6 nights of weirdness to just get married in the church. i think danny is dealing with it a lot better than i am. i guess, in all reality, i hate doing things that i am told to do. big reason why i never went into the military. so once these 6 weeks are over, we get a little certificate saying that we're compatible and have talked about just everything that may break us a part. but its fair to say that its a learning experience and i'm really not all that opposed to it. i just think its whack that it is mandatory to attend to get married in a church....well st john of the cross to be exact. after we complete this, we have to talk to a priest about differences we managed to score on a questionnaire they made us take. that'll be interesting.
every tuesday night dan has a basketball game. him and the rest of eazy livin get together and try to kick some young'n ass. its kinda funny sometimes. i guess its fair to say that ya'll aint got nothing on white old people! they do pretty good...for being over 30 and peaking to 40.
work...oh my...where do i ever begin about that place. Lets just say i'm fighting to make my place in that world. i just need to stick to my guns and work with my nose to the grinder. being a newbee sucks. i just need to stay positive. gotta stay positive.
the wedding is definitely closing in...and fast. i seem like i have so much to do with no time to do it or help for that matter. this wedding has definitely stressed me out to my max lately and i know its only going to get worse. i've even gotten to the point where i cant sleep at night cause i've got all kinds of things associated with the wedding running through my mind. its horrible. i know it shouldnt be like this. my right hand lady...lives in michigan and cant do shit from where she is at. my mom is A LOT of talk and no action. my bridesmaids are there but not there. i just dont have anyone i feel i can turn to and trust to take care of any of this stuff. janice is the only one who has stepped to the plate and taken charge of something and greatly appreciate it. my other girls are lost in the sauce of the corporate world and are consumed by things that are far more important than my wedding. ha what a joke, huh! i just cant wait till this fiasco is over. i really cant wait...i cant wait for the morning where i can wake up and not have to stress about this wedding. i really cant wait. the wedding itself...doesnt seem exciting to me anymore...its the morning after the wedding where i can finally breathe and be free excites me more. how pathetic is that?
can you believe there are so many little girls in the world that look forward to their wedding day? millions...and they have no idea what it entails....unless you can afford a wedding planner and can sit back and let them do all the bitch work for you....then that would be great. but for the working class like me....those things just arent worth it for the money. how sad is that. my kids are getting married in vegas...i aint going through this shit again.
so there...that's whats happened in the past 30 days....anyone wanna walk in my shoes?
my new year began as a very busy one and each week has had a tie to the wedding. the first weekend....danny and i had to attend a seminar on nfp. what is nfp, you ask. It is natural family planning. Its birth control for the hard core catholics out there. unfortunately, i am not a hard core catholic, and i simply rely on the method of birth control pills. But you see, i have never had the notion of being a hard core catholic...even growing up i strayed away from the morals of Catholicism. i know i was definitely going to hell when i lost my virginity back in freshman year of high school. those days seem to almost be a distant past for me now. my niece is a freshman in high school right now...playing basketball as i once did. she's following my footsteps in academics and sports...i just hope she doesnt go off fucking the whole student body by her senior year. i know she has morals...better ones than i had when i was that young.
back to the wedding stuff...so every monday at 7pm since january 7 and up to february 11 - dan and i have been attending evenings for the engaged. these evenings have typically lasted up to 2 hours...in that 2 hours we talk about all kinds of stuff. these evenings for the engaged are supposed to help us self reflect and apply it to our future. in a sense, its supposed to get us ready for the future. i must tell you, the topics are pretty ridiculous. I mean, if you havent talked about some of these topics they bring up then i think you dont have any business getting married to begin with. Thus far, we have talked about characteristics we both like in each other and about each other; characteristics of our family - from how they handled differences to how they handle each other; we've done an exercise on listening and telling; to telling the whole group how we met and why we decided to move in with each other. a lot of the questions are actually quite personal to a degree...its definitely not something i would bring up to a stranger to strike a conversation out of boredom. but whatever, the pope is making us go through this 6 nights of weirdness to just get married in the church. i think danny is dealing with it a lot better than i am. i guess, in all reality, i hate doing things that i am told to do. big reason why i never went into the military. so once these 6 weeks are over, we get a little certificate saying that we're compatible and have talked about just everything that may break us a part. but its fair to say that its a learning experience and i'm really not all that opposed to it. i just think its whack that it is mandatory to attend to get married in a church....well st john of the cross to be exact. after we complete this, we have to talk to a priest about differences we managed to score on a questionnaire they made us take. that'll be interesting.
every tuesday night dan has a basketball game. him and the rest of eazy livin get together and try to kick some young'n ass. its kinda funny sometimes. i guess its fair to say that ya'll aint got nothing on white old people! they do pretty good...for being over 30 and peaking to 40.
work...oh my...where do i ever begin about that place. Lets just say i'm fighting to make my place in that world. i just need to stick to my guns and work with my nose to the grinder. being a newbee sucks. i just need to stay positive. gotta stay positive.
the wedding is definitely closing in...and fast. i seem like i have so much to do with no time to do it or help for that matter. this wedding has definitely stressed me out to my max lately and i know its only going to get worse. i've even gotten to the point where i cant sleep at night cause i've got all kinds of things associated with the wedding running through my mind. its horrible. i know it shouldnt be like this. my right hand lady...lives in michigan and cant do shit from where she is at. my mom is A LOT of talk and no action. my bridesmaids are there but not there. i just dont have anyone i feel i can turn to and trust to take care of any of this stuff. janice is the only one who has stepped to the plate and taken charge of something and greatly appreciate it. my other girls are lost in the sauce of the corporate world and are consumed by things that are far more important than my wedding. ha what a joke, huh! i just cant wait till this fiasco is over. i really cant wait...i cant wait for the morning where i can wake up and not have to stress about this wedding. i really cant wait. the wedding itself...doesnt seem exciting to me anymore...its the morning after the wedding where i can finally breathe and be free excites me more. how pathetic is that?
can you believe there are so many little girls in the world that look forward to their wedding day? millions...and they have no idea what it entails....unless you can afford a wedding planner and can sit back and let them do all the bitch work for you....then that would be great. but for the working class like me....those things just arent worth it for the money. how sad is that. my kids are getting married in vegas...i aint going through this shit again.
so there...that's whats happened in the past 30 days....anyone wanna walk in my shoes?
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