This week was a rough one for Hannah and I. We are on non talking terms and things are extremely tense between us. It all started with me signing her up for a field trip with Project Safe. I didn't ask her cause she always had an interest in going no matter what. I was wrong w this one and I apologized and offered to talk to the coordinator to which she said no. She told me not to do it again and I agreed. So I figured it was squashed until Wednesday the day of the field trip. Keep in mind I signed her up about 4 weeks ago. She gave me a piece of her mind with attitude and disrespect on top of it. I will not tolerate her talking to me with attitude nor disrespect, that's a huge no no in my book. To top things off and make things even more tense she invited her friends to her school dance and didn't think to figure out how her friends will get to the dance. So of course that responsibility fell on me and let me tell you that I was very unhappy with how it played out and I made sure she knew.
Anyway, Dan and I celebrated 19 years of being together. Feb 21 is our ultimate special day. Unfortunately it was overshadowed with the drama Hannah and I are having which is super unfortunate. He celebrated by getting me donuts from Mary's.
I've really been missing my parents and especially my mom as of late. She's been heavy on my mind and I hope she's doing ok in heaven with my dad and that she knows I did my best to take really good care of her despite how I took my frustrations out on her. I feel like I failed her and that really hurts my heart that I occasionally treated her with disrespect. That's what hurts my heart the most from losing her.
