13 of 52 of 2021

So ...  

Dan did a thing a week before Thanksgiving 2020 and it finally came in!

Actually it came in a week before Christmas but the color was wrong. It was black.  Dan put an order into the dealership because he specifically wanted the color Snazzberry and the Willys trim. 

3 months later in March it finally arrived.  Dan is so incredibly happy with it and I'm so glad he didn't settle for the black in December. He would have regretted it. We will have some fun time in the Willys.

12 of 52 of 2021

This week was just as busy if not busier than last week. There were many highs and lows from the week.  I'll try to cover them all in order.   

Monday and Tuesdsy were a low. The project I'm working on has a huge scope and I was hoping for a break thru in information from some SMEs but only walked away with more questions than answers. 

Wednesday was a high. I was able to complete some deliverables early so I can put more time on my  huge project. 

Thursday was a high.  I got my first dose of the Pfizer vaccine. 

Friday was a low and high. The low explains the picture I have for this post. My mom has been becoming more and more depressed and living a lot less. She has self confined herself to her bedroom. She's using diapers to minimize the clean ups from accidents. The low is of her not being able to make it to the restroom in time. The diaper failed her upset tummy causing a mess all over the bed and a trail into the restroom.  As disgusted as I knowing I'd have to clean it up, I did it without complaint. I know she was embarrassed and that alone broke my heart. She already feels she is a heavy burden to me. Truth be told, I'm glad I am able to care for her.  I complain and cry at stretching myself so thin between caring for her and my family but she's my mom and couldn't turn my back on her or move her into a facility. The hardest part of Friday was Hannah seeing her this way. I want Hannah to have happy memories of her Lola. I also hope that I'm setting and example for Hannah of how to be caring towards aging parents. How important it is to show compassion and love above all else. The high for Friday was receiving news about my bonus.  Based on 2020 goals and performance I received a 10k bonus and 3.4% raise. 

Saturday was a low. My brother and his wife are facing hard time in their marriage and there's no telling what this means for them. I worry for my niece and nephew the most. 

Sunday has yet to be lived. I'm hoping for a high.  

11 of 52 of 2021

This week has been one of the busiest of the year.  From this week until the end of the year will become increasingly busy. Work will become hectic with the several projects I'm working on. Home life will become busy with the kids' spring b break quickly approaching.  Things with mom will become busier after she gets her 2nd Moderna shot.  She is over due for many medical appointments since the pandemic hit us this time last year. 

I'm thankful for the rare times I get to put my feet up, relax, read a boom and just hang out with my main squeeze.  

10 of 52 of 2021

Mom got her 1st Moderna shot on Friday at 1030am.  The day started hectic with Jim calling saying he was going to arrive late because of an accident. This meant I had to abandon my very important meeting so I can go to mom's house to wake, dress and feed her so she's ready by the time Jim arrives. He was able to get her to her appointment on time.  He noticed that she had a hardly time filling out the paperwork.  Mom really can't do much of anything by herself anymore. The only thing she is able to do on her own is using the restroom. She's started using diapers full time a few weeks ago. This has been great because she's been having accidents.

Back to the vaccine. Mom was doing fine when she got home. She ate lunch with me and Jim.  She even watched a movie.  I woke her up at 3pm to take her blood pressure and temperature like I do any other day.  She complained of chest pain and difficulty breathing.  I immediately called Kaiser advice line. She didn't have any swelling or itching which is expected with an allergic reaction. However with the chest pain and difficulty breathing they advised us to go to the ER. We arrived at 430pm and she was discharged at 845pm. Luckily everything checked out with her EKG, blood work and chest x rays. The cause of her chest pain and difficulty breathing was her being anxious about the vaccine. 

I'm thankful she received her first dose of the vaccine but I am worried about how she will react to the second dose. This is the first step to getting mom out and about so she can get back into the world and around people.