"That's normal"
Those were the words that described my shut down.
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The day started normal for a Saturday. Woke up normal. Worked out at the Y like normal. Ran errands at Costco like normal. Got lunch at Del Taco like normal. Laundry was being done like normal. Kids were being normal.
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The evening hit and it was normal no more. A little snide comment was all it took. At least it was my perception of it being a snide comment. I decided to finally relax in the lazy boy and the remote was handed to me. I wasnt looking to change the channel and said something to that nature. And the comment came...lf wanting to watch basketball but had to do all these other little things and now watch the kids.
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Resentment hit first. Then i was just pissed off. I busted my ass all day doing chores: laundry, cleaning the floors, cleaning the bath, picking up the kitchen, watching the kids while he stepped out for a couple hours. Not once today had i had the opportunity to kick up my feet open a brew and take a deep breath.
So after a series of events in the evening that got my blood boiling and my son asked id i was happy and i responded no im pissed off. I resigned. I auto shut down. I decided im not taking any more. I dont want to talk about it. I dont want to argue about it. Im just done.
So yes not wanting to talk about it and hash it out is my new normal. I have no fight left cause i have no energy left. This is my new normal.
