Finding me again

Me. I limit the "all about me" moments and seem to put a majority of my energy into everyone else, in doing so, I have realized I'm losing me.
I used to think of myself as happy go lucky, roll with the punches, lets just conquer the day type of a person. I used to sing in the shower, dance like a maniac in the car and sing and dance as I cook. All that gone.
Now I find myself strung so tight that I yell at my kids, dog and husband for the tiniest things. I, quite frankly, dont like it. I am deciding to find me again. I am making a promise to myself to do at least 1 thing a day for me that makes me happy.  This is huge, cause I have felt so disconnected for so long.

3rd attempt...2014

The year 2014...the end of the year as a matter of fact. Its 510am on a Wednesday morning. Im laying next to Hannah listening to her breathe.  As she sleeps so peacefully, I lay here with so much stuff running through my head.
So yes, this is my 3rd attempt at blogging. Okay, so why blogging...and why a 3rd time. The simple answer is this is to help myself from completely internalizing everything. I internalize until I cant anymore then I just blow. I get to a point where its just too much then I shut down. So here I am going to attempt, again, to express and share to an unknowing world the stuff that goes on in my head. Failures. Successes. Sadness. Happiness. Everything.
So heres to getting the stuff off my brain so I can just let them be...let it run its course. I at the age of 33 need to find my new happy place. My balance. I need to find my center because I find myself all too often getting lost in the day to day stuff. And all too often I find myself living and doing things for others and not necessarily myself. Its dawning on me that I need to start making me happy too cause if I dont make am attempt to do that now this beautiful life and all the blessings I have in it will be too much a day job and not the life I'd love to live. I want to love the life I live...even as stressful it is.
So heres to my 3rd attempt.